Elle

"If you ever get into a relationship and you see any sign of a red flag just leave. god. Then it'll be 2 weeks later and he has keys to somebody's apartment and you're in love. If I could give you any fucking wisdom it would be just be so careful. & That's what hard about being alone. It doesn't matter how much yoga you do or how many miles you run in Long Beach or how many records you put out. But pulling geographical is helpful for me,. I've driven across the country so many times, driven across New Mexico, and I feel different in the middle of the country. I feel so different. I've had some fucking really weird things happen when I've written things down like I will never speak to this person again but in this book they say once you are at your most vulnerable or you have made your most solid declarations you will have a series of almost psychic events that seem to bring that person of your life IE run into mutual friends, run into someone at the grocery store, and that's a sign I did something right. Even the paparazzi this morning, he scared me to death and I couldn't get my chickens back in the coop. They were crying all night long. Then my dad ripped his pants. I'm so sensitive if they cry at night, I'm cuddling them and they're just chickens but the thing is I already had a bad morning because I was up all night and then this paparazzi in this blacked out car followed me and then these last 2 years that were normal just disappeared and now it's like I'm not normal. I'm like this person. All of this could make you want to call somebody that you shouldn't because it's so hard to be alone even if you're with dad. That's a personality type. It's not everybody. It's very codependent. I'm a sensitive alcoholic codependent myriad."

"Did you know that my dad called all my friends in high school Jennifer and I never knew a Jennifer? My dad and I also don't know how old we are. I've gotten my age wrong since I was 24. Now I have my best friend Jen and he calls her Jan."

"In the end even if everyone hates it, it all comes out in the wash. None of it matters. I mean, I think also I heard someone say once sometimes in relationships it's not the messenger, its the message. Sometimes you have to pay attention to what was it in that partner that they had that you wanted and what did you have that they wanted. I mean I personally know the answers to those two questions in all my relationships. Is it stability? Is it the ability to hold it together no matter what? But also they ended up losing it, so that was also messed up."

"My surrogate mom candy says that chemistry never dies. even if the other person dies, chemistry never dies. It's like we have soulmates but we don't have to marry them and I think I had that old trailer for Lust for Life and I talked about holding in my poetry I hold many worlds in the palms of my hands. That trailer was everything. Rich is gonna help me do a trailer like that and also have it like float into all the videos I have from the past two years, but that's triggering too. I actually stopped making... Ew, why did someone say 'Congrats on your surrogate pregnancy?' Yuck, go away. You're so annoying. You know what the good thing is though? I think just knowing that time the only thing that's going to make it get better is so much time. If you’re that sensitive, I think also, do you every listen to Jerry & Esther Hicks? They have saved my life many times. I think Jerry's passed now, but I listen to Esther all the time and she talks about how important it is to have non-thought like not having positive thoughts about the future or sad thoughts about the past but just like having a singular point of focus in a meditation or while you're sleeping while your thoughts just stop where the train stops gaining momentum. Its' not like it ceases to be there but you have an opportunity to have other thoughts keep in there. I meditate a lot, do so many meditations because I am so ADD, I remember everything. The people I'm thinking about, they don't remember anything. Candy says they're always thinking about you too, but I think probably not. For that reason, I have to take so much time to slow down my thinking and slow down my breathing. The good thing is I've been in certain rooms where I'm shocked to hear people want to jump out a building because their relationship ended. I'm like really? You look like you have it all together!"

"The second epidemic to come out of the pandemic was domestic disputes. It rose beyond 300% in this country. If you went to some of the meetings I went to, you would be shocked. All of the feelings I thought were so unique to me about just wanting to just not wanna do this anymore, like, people who are like old and young and smart and stupid they are all saying the same thing like they felt like the end of the relationship they knew it didn't make sense, but they felt the end of the relationship was going to break them. I remember when Sean and I broke up and I thought It was the end of the world especially because he was perceived as everything that I wasn't, like sunshine and the right side of the law and it broke my heart. The whole idea of everything disintegrating and the lesson was I got to get in touch with that panicked side that was very old because they say hysteria is historical, so it's a reason to dig into your history but you don't want to do it alone. & even still everything hurts, like when I see things it hurts. You would be shocked like relationships completely break people. They really do. Even if you go onto the next one, it's not like it gets better."

"When I say things like that, it's because I want something to impact me. I want it to impact me." - talking about the "looking to get fucked hard" lyric in Gods & Monsters x

"I think if people hadn't been so mean to me I wouldn't have been able to get mad. I was always the one to turn the other cheek in my life. I'm very quiet. I think there's always a lesson in all of it and I think it gave me permission to be mad in other areas. The hard part is like what to do next, like, even for me the answer didn't really feel like making another record was the right answer to being pissed off but at the time it was all I knew how to do. But there's so many other things to do. Also for me it takes a village to make me un-mad. Like connection is so important. I remember writing down at some point 4 years ago I need more friends, and I found them. I wrote it and I found the most amazing girls. Do you know how crazy it is to do when you’re grown up to meet friends? Maybe if people hadn't been so tough on me, I wouldn't have felt like I needed more friends. Then god brought me the most or spirit brought me the most beautiful friendships - people I never thought I would ever meet. My girlfriends in high school before I went to boarding school were amazing, so I sort of got them back, you know? The paparazzi were gone for 2 years, everything was so normal and then this morning it really fucking sucked because I was trying to feed my chickens, somehow they were like looking through the hedges and I was also wearing something insane so I left and was like this is really scary. & then I always do the wrong thing which is I always speed up really fast to their drivers side which is so dangerous and take a picture of them but I shouldn't do that. I want to give a shoutout to Tessa DiPietro. She's the most talented woman I've met in LA in the past 10 years. There's like no way to get ahold of her. She doesn't have a website. She doesn't like post or anything but I met her like 8 years ago and she didn't know me at all, and the first thing she said to me was, a question is coming off of your right shoulder that wants to be acknowledged, and that question is how does it serve you to be submissive in your life? And I went a shade of red you can't describe and I didn't know if it was a sexual innuendo, but I said well if you’re submissive in general people don’t get mad at you. She said i'ts not a question that needs to be answered, it's a question to present to your psyche. Since then she's brought so many, I like the concept that she brought to light about the over culture. You know how somethings things go badly in your life things are also weird in other people's lives? There's a power of that superconscious. It's also why you'll see like.5 movies come out that are all about Snow White. The tone of the over culture is very powerful."

"I applied to colleges 3 times. The biggest blessing I had was getting a metro pass from my dad so I didn't have to walk to the D train because it used to take me like an hour and half to Grand Central."

"The amazing thing is we sat down in the studio. We wrote it at home, but when we went to record it I sat down at the piano and I was looking at Lana through the glass panel and started to play. She started to sing. I had the headphones, and we did it in one take." - Rob "I do everything in one take" - Lana "We looked at each other when it was done and we were like, what happened?" - Rob "It's a lot of pressure to be in a really nice studio, but when we're at home he just plays and plays and plays." - Lana Lana & Rob about Sweet Carolina x

The line in wildflower wildfire "here's the deal, I promise you like a million tomorrows" is sang in present tense! Rather than promised in past tense x

"This is Lana Del Rey. I think my dad's downstairs trying to get up. My dad is at the front desk. His name is Rob." - on the phone with the hotel iconiccc x

"I love that song called Your Girl. Shit."

Lana confirmed the lyric in Ultraviolence is "I'm a dragon" "because I was so fucking pissed off at this person. So I was like, I'm a dragon, you're a whore! And it was going to rhyme with something, but I never ended up rhyming it, so it didn't make sense, but whatever." whore = Lorde confirmed?

"I'm staying at a hotel right now because of the paparazzi, this is not my normal life, but my dad says he's here so hopefully he finds his way up here."

"I think I did it because I wanted to show the comparison of my Sharon Tate red hair. (Where did Taylor Secman come from?) Who's that?? I have no idea, bro, that is weird. That I cannot account for. I guess I probably just thought of something very different from my name. I know that my uhauljoe account I had since the day YouTube started where I put out all my weird videos and then I put up my Sylvia video because I mean that song - did you see that video on there? For Hope is a Dangerous Thing? Candy just called me, my surrogate mother Candace." - Lana about BurthdayKake

LANA CONFIRMED BURTHDAYKAKE WAS HER x

"I was in boarding school and I couldn't go home, so I was sent straight to Spain. It was amazing but I definitely felt like very alone. I went with a lot of other kids and luckily they were super nice, but I didn't know any of them. On the plane ride there, they gave me a little cake that said Sweet 16 because I turned 16 in the air. It was cool, but I was like, am I ever going to go home? I remember there were nude beaches and I was not as cute as the other girls and I was like I'm never going to do this."

"When I was 16, I was almost fluent. I had family there, I had a Spanish sister, a Spanish mom, and all I remember them saying is, "Lizzy! (Spanish) because I would leave the house with the radio and the lights on, I had no concept of burning energy. They had an American bar, I think it was called The American Bar, and I used to drink so much tequila because I was like 16 and I could. & They also had absinthe there. You don't need to know." - Lana talking about her time in Spain when she was 16 x

This is literally soooo cute to watch, Lana is so sweet with her fans, asking them questions about themselves and all. The fan & Lana are talking Spanish together x

"There was a lightning storm rapidly approaching they told me 1 second before I got on stage I couldn't go. My tour manager, he's not a big guy, he locked me in my room while he stood against the door and I threw plates at him. I've never thrown anything at anyone? I can't say that, I threw one thing at a longterm boyfriend. It was not heavy. But I threw plates at Pete my tour manager of 13 years because it's so important for me to go out there and tell them I'm not going to be able to go out. But he told me that would create hysteria. That was one of my craziest moments. We didn't talk for my whole tour after that. I felt it was only right even if from the side wings to say something. & Pete is not a tough guy!" - her having to cancel the Dallas show in 2015

"When you’re a singer you aren't just yourself, you feel something on your shoulders of the over culture of what kind of woman are you. Are you feigning fragility? & It's kind of like, no. I mean if there is fragility, but it's also, it's not, it's like family of origin fragility. & what's interesting is when you start to look at that, like patterns run up and down my lineage. & That's also why I haven't been able to write as much autobiographical because it's going up the family tree. It's scary up there! But that's just my story, like sometimes I worry that people are going to pull up family records and see how things went. There's a lot there. When one family dives deep into their desires of what they want to do, it's really healing for the whole family. Oprah's book club over here." - this was from a few minutes ago when she was chatting with Bryan, but I needed to clean up the transcription lol x

AHHH SHE JUST CALLED OUT MY INSTAGRAM HANDLE

"My wrist is tired. I've only signed 2,400 of the cards. The signatures at the end are going to be worth like 1 penny."

"I think god muted me for like 3 minutes, probably for a reason. I was going on some self-righteous tirade." - regarding her first live suddenly going mute x

"Make up your mind and hate me! That's perfect! & then for everyone else, let's put the money somewhere good."