mkultraviolence

yayo (paradise version)

im so worried that bartender will be a boring piano ballad like hope and i'll end up hating it

Mermaid Motel

she's saying "in my vape" which is why i think "jizz is in my vape" is the most probable lyric that we have

she isn't even saying "in my veins" lmaooo where'd yall gays here that

i don't know. someone else probably does though

i haven't listened to the leak, but a few people have said it would fit well on BTD

send him all our love and thanks for his contributions, i miss his charming wit

it's clearly jizz. and i've been thinking, not like it isn't obvious, that the song is about drugs. she works other topics in there too, but i think on the most personal level that it's about: "so i moved to California" moving away/ leaving old friends behind/ getting rid of physical things that you associate with drugs but... "but it's just a state of mind" realizing that it isn't about where you are, relocating won't change your addict mind. she associates New York with drugs so she moves away but the craving or ruminations still follow. "everywhere you go, you take yourself" most of her life has been spent trying to escape addiction. that's why the car theme is so heavy in her lyrics. cars represent escape and freedom. she tries so hard to leave this past behind, but she just can't shake it. sometimes cravings are just so strong or you have positive memories associated with those times when you were using that even 15 years after being sober you can still have cravings every day. she is starting to feel like this is just who she is; she thinks the urges to use are just a part of her because her art/work and life has been so intertwined in drug use. she wants to "do it differently" . she doesn't want to be an addict anymore. 1001+ reasons for that. "it's killing me slowly" drugs kill and weaken your health, but this may also refer to the feeling of being trapped, feeling so bad that it feels like it's killing her. it could also be that she is having withdrawals which can also kill you or at least make you feel like you are going to die. maybe she means all of these ideas and more. "I used to shoot up my veins in neon and shit's even brighter now that you're gone" drugs can make you numb or make you feel electric and bright...for a quick moment. some people use drugs to feel that great "bright" feeling of nirvana. when you are trying to quit by stopping, you feel like absolute shit. it takes a veeeerrrrrrrrrrryyyyy long time for you to start to feel better and achieve some slightly good feeling on your own. although it takes a while, she realizes that she can feel good or happy without using drugs; the drugs being what is "gone". "You can't feel it and you're tired" some drugs can make you feel numb and tired; during an overdose on heroin the body relaxes so much into a state of almost sleeping, heart barely beating, barely breathing. it feels warm and you're tired and just want to sleep, you don't even want to wake up from it. mmmkay so this is my take, and genetics/biology/trauma/environment/illness, etc. or nothing at all can be associated with why people start using/abusing. i didn't talk about all the complexities of addiction and drug abuse so sorry if some of what i wrote seems offensive, i just don't want to have to explain why i said what i said. anyways... i said what i said.

BECAUSE PEOPLE PUT BABIES IN THE BACKSEAT jeanus!

yes to heaven?

these fake lyrics are quoted so much that i don't even remember what the real lyrics are...like i have no fuckin idea what to expect instead

she is so heavenly in those pictures what

yeah it works now

doesn't work

a comment i saw on the greatest/fiily video: Is this the sad girl from summertime sadness??? that's so funny to me, like seeing 2012 Lana and then coming back and seeing her now, it's probably a cool experience

i honestly forgot cinnamon existed

omg thanks

i have so much love for you <3 and i've laughed so much more since joining lanaboards, SNL who?

i could make better merch on custom ink omg

can you the share the link if it's public?

yo i'm so glad i'm on lanaboards; this is my first lana album era and the first artist that i've deeply stanned. i've learned so much. i never listened to radio shows or cared about magazine articles or old photos. i hadn't even heard of unreleased tracks. i didn't watch live streams, i was such a novice. the last few years of stanning her have been so life changing. lanaboards has really helped me get new information and it's just an awesome resource, so thanks everyone

9pm tonight im gonna play this super loud on my speakers, close my curtains, turn on my pink christmas lights and just hoe-dance to this

my neighbors are about to hear fuck it i love you and the greatest on repeat for the next 8 hours