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Nice quality vid.
 

As long as you can realize what is wrong then that's what matters! It sounds like you're working hard to conquer it (and you seem to be doing well at the very least!) and you're reasons are super valid! Sorry for trying to budge in hah, but you have it under control so i'm going to let you do your thing Love you!

Thank you I really appreciate your concern but I had actually already moved on so I'm a bit confused. I regret to have to make this about myself but it's really really really not about Lana, this happens with every people I stan bc idk why but that's the way my disorders seem to work, literally the only thing to do is let me move on. I wouldn't have hurt myself this time because I'm stronger than I was but I just can't speak about it yet. I really wish I wasn't a stalker and I know how hard it is not to be but I think I'm pretty much in control of it. And it's hard because being a stan, in this case it's Lana but idk at all why it's her instead of anyone else, that triggered the best things that happened to me so when something doesn't corresponds to the idea I fantasized about it makes me really distressed and it can appear concerning from an external point of view. It's just a loop and it's all going back to normal soon, I do am trying to distance myself though thank you! Even though it's hard because drawing and making edits is the only thing I like to do haha

it's so fucking sad she dyed her hair back to brunette, she looked GORGEOUS as blonde, like it makes me suuuuper sad
 

You are right. She has improved a lot this tour, I think. I really hope for some changes on the setlist, cause let's face it: the crowd loves more uptempo material. Therefor she should really skip Carmen and Cola is so fucking dated. She could pull of Gods & Monsters instead. So many ppl know it cause of AHS.