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[yourolllikethunder 4,843]

Hi friends, I released my fourth song today, called “black tunnel.” It’s my ode to 90s alternative with a shoegaze-inspired chorus. I’d be honored if anyone wants to give it a listen or save: https://heddy.lnk.to/blacktunnel

It’s about how my mental health often causes me to isolate myself and lose touch with people, only to see them again in the grocery store or in my dreams. I am a published poet and I took my pen game really seriously and I’m so proud of how it turned out. The more personal story behind it, for anyone bored and reading this, is that I had a group of friends in high school who basically kept me around to make fun of me. I was a mega-square because my extended family experience addiction and I wanted zero chance at that kind of life, and people could be mean about that. I adopted ann ego complex I used as a shield to feel better than the people who hurt me, or important somehow. But after we lost touch, I realized I had been the punchline and that it wasn’t my fault for losing touch, because they never had my best interest at heart. The verses are the longing, regret, and isolation, and the chorus is that latent anger…

 

here’s the lyrics:

 

There’s a crystal ball inside the walls

It tells me what to do

I see the signs, divine the cards

Still can’t follow through

 

And you ask me how I’ve been

A crown of thorns, sad coronation

Maybe I’ll tell you sometime

Look out for the invitation

 

Black tunnel, I spin alone, alone

No one shows to the party

I catch the light, I treat you right 

Still I’m barely a memory

 

Stick that needle in my eye

Oh I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried

You can tell it straight to your mother

I died, I died, I died, I died

 

Sometimes what it comes down to

Is you can’t shake me, I can’t shake the blues

 

My golden dreams, vanilla cream

Are streaming through the stereo

If only I could swim right through

that astral plane out the window

 

And I ask you how you’ve been

A toothy grin, a sore performance

Maybe I’ll see you again

In shopping aisles or in the dreamcast

 

Black tunnel, I pray alone, alone

On my knees, superstition

Please catch the light, treat me right

Signed your vague apparition

 

Stick that needle in my eye

Oh I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried

You can tell it straight to your mother

I died, I died, I died, I died

 

Sometimes what it comes down to

Is you can’t shake me, I can’t shake the blues

 

Spill this vaulted heart

Full of talismans and reminiscence

I’ll stay wild of mind

Abstemious, reading Dionysus

 

Stick that needle in my eye

You can tell it straight to your mother

 

Sometimes what it comes down to

Is you can’t shake me, I can’t shake the blues
 

[yourolllikethunder 4,843]

I *promise* I’ll stfu about this now but Atwood Magazine, which I’ve loved forever, somehow heard my new song & interviewed me, and it just went up today, alongside their interviews with Declan McKenna, X Ambassadors, and The Staves like wtf!!!! screaming and crying and have no friends who understand how lakdlaskksakjsnakka this is — anyone who clicks it to drive it up on their website, I’ll give you a hug !!

INNER WORLDS & JOHN HUGHES MOVIES: HEDDY EDWARDS WANTS TO SHOW YOU HER TEENAGE BEDROOM

https://atwoodmagazine.com/hebt-heddy-edwards-music-interview-2024/

[AntiToxicPill 2,005]

On 3/29/2024 at 11:08 PM, yourolllikethunder said:

Hi friends, I released my fourth song today, called “black tunnel.” It’s my ode to 90s alternative with a shoegaze-inspired chorus. I’d be honored if anyone wants to give it a listen or save: https://heddy.lnk.to/blacktunnel

It’s about how my mental health often causes me to isolate myself and lose touch with people, only to see them again in the grocery store or in my dreams. I am a published poet and I took my pen game really seriously and I’m so proud of how it turned out. The more personal story behind it, for anyone bored and reading this, is that I had a group of friends in high school who basically kept me around to make fun of me. I was a mega-square because my extended family experience addiction and I wanted zero chance at that kind of life, and people could be mean about that. I adopted ann ego complex I used as a shield to feel better than the people who hurt me, or important somehow. But after we lost touch, I realized I had been the punchline and that it wasn’t my fault for losing touch, because they never had my best interest at heart. The verses are the longing, regret, and isolation, and the chorus is that latent anger…

 

here’s the lyrics:

 

There’s a crystal ball inside the walls

It tells me what to do

I see the signs, divine the cards

Still can’t follow through

 

And you ask me how I’ve been

A crown of thorns, sad coronation

Maybe I’ll tell you sometime

Look out for the invitation

 

Black tunnel, I spin alone, alone

No one shows to the party

I catch the light, I treat you right 

Still I’m barely a memory

 

Stick that needle in my eye

Oh I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried

You can tell it straight to your mother

I died, I died, I died, I died

 

Sometimes what it comes down to

Is you can’t shake me, I can’t shake the blues

 

My golden dreams, vanilla cream

Are streaming through the stereo

If only I could swim right through

that astral plane out the window

 

And I ask you how you’ve been

A toothy grin, a sore performance

Maybe I’ll see you again

In shopping aisles or in the dreamcast

 

Black tunnel, I pray alone, alone

On my knees, superstition

Please catch the light, treat me right

Signed your vague apparition

 

Stick that needle in my eye

Oh I tried, I tried, I tried, I tried

You can tell it straight to your mother

I died, I died, I died, I died

 

Sometimes what it comes down to

Is you can’t shake me, I can’t shake the blues

 

Spill this vaulted heart

Full of talismans and reminiscence

I’ll stay wild of mind

Abstemious, reading Dionysus

 

Stick that needle in my eye

You can tell it straight to your mother

 

Sometimes what it comes down to

Is you can’t shake me, I can’t shake the blues
 

This is brilliant !!! 👏👏👏

[yourolllikethunder 4,843]

31 minutes ago, AntiToxicPill said:

This is brilliant !!! 👏👏👏

thank you so much!! 

[Glitter Boy 16,209]

Hi beautiful people! I just passed by to share the deluxe edition of my latest album Sad Blue Forever, out now! It includes three brand new tracks (12, 13 and 14). It'd be lovely if you could give it a listen to a couple of these, and I hope you like them!

(LB finally let me embed a Spotify link so yay!)