I’m SO happy she got her second pitchfork BNM! I held off on posting immediate thoughts of the album because there was *so* much to digest. It left me with a perplexing, almost uneasy feeling I’ve seen others echo: that I felt in my bones the album was a total masterpiece—the mood/atmosphere of it is incredibly haunting, darkly whimsical, and unique—but I didn’t feel at first like I would seek out tracks like fingertips/kintsugi/grandfather to listen to on their own or get them stuck in my head. they’re so personal, [artistically] meandering given the automatic writing, and almost “chorus-less” that they feel meant to be consumed with the album in whole. (I’m already wrong because I’ve replayed them all a few times). it made me feel similar to the way that honeymoon did—although that album had more traditional hooks/bridges, it took a while for it to sink into my bones and get stuck in my head, and for me to crave specific tracks to replay. this one’s beauty will grow with time for me, I’m certain.
the longer I sit with this album, the more I think it’s one of her most cohesive ones. candy necklace (I love the interludes, especially jon batiste’s!) and paris, texas were the major highlights for me on first listen—these, to me, sum up the mood of the album. “you’re home when you’re alone”: when your mother or lover strands you and the media forsakes you, you still have yourself and what you choose to do with your life, your love, your grief, your glory.
the whole album feels like that plastic bag scene in american beauty, down to the muted piano tones. it’s like she takes the ‘public mythology’ of LDR and completely flips it inside out and walks you through each vein and ventricle, how the heart beats. now I’ll think of fingertips every time someone mentions this is what makes us girls, or A&W when I think of ride, etc. it’s the glowing inner workings of her previous songs, like their commentary. it’s starkly and deeply personal in a way that feels like we almost shouldn’t be listening, and she’s shared thoughts with us we hadn’t previously been privileged to. it’s an honor.
she truly is in a creative class of her own, and she is masterful at her craft, leading an artistic life and building a legacy through her body of work. I am so eager to see where she goes from here, and so proud