ImTragic

guys, this reminds me of Lana so much

interesting no, maybe crazy? when i was 9 i found out Santa was not real because my mom lost everything and we had no home.... so she gave me a toy i already had telling me that santa is not real and that we dont have anything (thanks mum) when was the last time you went on a shopping spree?

Daddy

S. Where are you from? LG. All over. S. No, really. LG. No really, all over. I’ve lived in Lake Placid, New York, Birmingham Alabama, Coney Island and New York. S. Tell me about growing up? What was life like before coming to New York? LG. Hmm. Growing up was just waiting to come to New York. (Lizzy requested not to talk about her life before New York in any more than a general way. She did reveal she was bred and buttered in Lake Placid and sent to boarding school at 15 years old, never to return except to visit her mom, dad and little brother, who still live there.) S. Okay, no questions about your life before New York. What’s your favorite color? Or do you prefer not to talk about it? LG. I like blue. I like gold. (laughs) S. You’re signed to Five Points records. How’d you get the record deal? LG. I entered a song writing competition in Brooklyn, my first and almost only competition. And Van Wilson was a judge there. S. Who’s Van Wilson? LG. Van is the A & R guy for 5 Points Records. He was a judge on my night and he asked me to call him and so I called him right away. S. What did you and Van talk about when you made that phone call? LG. I was (pause). I felt desperate. I had a lot of questions. I didn’t know who to ask them to? I didn’t know what he did? I just knew he said he was in the music business and I didn’t ever know any one who said they were in the music ‘business’. So I thought, you know, when you find some one who’ll talk to you, you just ask them anything. So I asked him everything. I asked, do you think I can sing? Do you think I should sing? Do you think this is stupid, to want to be a singer and he said, for you no! Not for you. For most people I don’t think it’s a good life, but I think you can have an audience. I asked him, how do I do it? And he said you just play, just play and sing. S. So you met the right guy and got the right phone number on the first shot. LG. Yeah. S. That’s pretty much the dream, isn’t it? I mean, I don’t know, but I hear there are a lot of creeps out there!? A lot of liars out there that might say they’re something they’re not… LG. It’s true. S. You only hear that in the movies. LG. It’s true. I’m going to have to keep that moment in mind when things are hard. S. Did you win the contest? LG. I won my round. I didn’t win the whole thing. The song writing competition loved that for PR. S. How do you characterize your music? LG. Well, I say that it is in the genre ‘Surf Noir.’ One of the first producers I worked with, Steven Saint, learned a lot from Dick Dale (father of surf music, pre-Beach Boys) so the beginning of the sound was influenced by some sounds from Hawaii and surf guitars, so that’s where the surf comes from. And the noir comes from, I like old movies and I just listen to old music cause it’s good. Eh, it just sounds good! S. What kind of music do you listen to? Who do you listen to? LG. I like The Flamingos and I like Elvis. I feel like they are my contemporaries. They’re my friends. I like the Beach Boys. S. Who’d you listen to today? LG. I listened to Elvis and the Flamingos and myself. I like myself too. (laughs) S. How many songs have you written? LG. Oof, a hundred. A hundred good ones. S. What would say to some one who wants to become a singer? I mean, your conditions are extraordinary. LG. Yeah, yeah, it doesn’t usually work out like that. With that being said, I guess you gotta ask yourself are you good. Either you have to be some one who’s really good, or some one who can be better than any one else who’s around. Or if you think that music is something that you want to make a life at, well, you just do it! Just don’t stop. S. Regrets? LG. Probably. But all the cool people say they have no regrets. S. What don’t you like about the music business? LG. I’d like to feel like I knew what I was doing. S. I hear you don’t have a manager right now? Can you talk about it? LG. Yeah I can, I’m just not sure what to say. It would be fun to have some one who could snap his fingers and make things happen. Especially since we’ve had good magic with the project and it seems whenever some guy, some big wig gets involved then good things happen. I feel if I had a new manager I’d have some new projects going on. I got a little bored but I’m having fun making my own movies and writing. S. Movies? LG. I have little videos. S. The youtube stuff. You make those? LG. I do. S. Tell me about one of your songs. Tell me about writing “Mermaid Motel.” LG. I wrote “Mermaid Motel” because I was so happy. I was on such a roll. I wrote three smashing songs, in my opinion. I wrote “Queen of the Gas Station,” “Jump,” and “Put me in a Movie” in a week. And that’s how it happens. I have to wait so long, I never know how long, could be years (for inspiration), but I know exactly when I have a song, and it comes all at once. It doesn’t take long to write. It comes with the melody. It comes with the harmonies and I have to take as long as it takes that day, because then it does leave. S. Anything else about your songs you want to talk about, anything that inspires you, or any story you want to tell about any of your songs? LG. I don’t know, there are certain visuals that seem to keep coming up like things that are gold, Vegas or handsome guys or motorcycles. S. You mean things that keep coming up in your songs? Is that where your head is at? LG. I don’t know. It must be, ‘cause they reappear. …I don’t get tired of them (Laughs).

I once had a boyfriend who talked about all the reasons why he loved flags, Rock-and-Roll, and America. I didn’t know much about all of that, but I did love him and I wanted to be just like him. So everything in the videos — the Vegas pyramid, the brides’ smile, the groom motioning “cheers” — they’re all different expressions of the happiness I had when I loved a man who loved me and America. You don't have that traditional relationship where maybe you go out with couples at night, or you do normal things. It's more of an extension of the creative process. There's high-impact events that happen, or big adventures, or big fallouts. So it's inspiring, and it's not grounding, but it's what I need to keep going. I'm really specific about why I'm doing something or writing something.But it always kind of gets translated in the opposite fashion. I haven't done it yet, but I've learned that everything I'm going to do is going to have the opposite reaction of what I meant. So I should do the opposite if I want a good reaction I really liked Cat Power, because I felt like I really understood her. She was a person who really meant a lot to me, just knowing that it was okay to start your performance with your back to the audience, at first, if you really couldn't face it. I mean, a lot of the time I just really felt like, 'I'm not really sure if I can do it.' But I mean, I've gotten better. I had a dream that I was waiting for someone to find me, and in the sky, where the stars were supposed to be, it was an Uber map. And I was watching this person get further and further away from me, where the constellations were supposed to be. And I woke up totally confused. But, I mean, I saw him off and on for seven years, and I'm still close with him. He's someone who really influenced the way that I saw things, just in terms of not being able to have what I wanted. And just being close to a life that I really envisioned and loved. It wasn't a career thing, it was a lifestyle thing. I was passionate about him and what he did, and it was being close to what I loved, but not really having it. Which I felt was just symbolic for the way things had been for so many years, standing right next to something that was so beautiful, but never quite having it You know, I was living in Hancock Park once and thought about a movie idea. I was renting this house whose high walls had been grandfathered in, so of course I kept making them taller and taller. And I had an idea about writing something about a woman living there, a singer losing her mind. She has this Nest-like security system installed, cameras everywhere. The only people she saw were people who work on the grounds: construction people and gardeners. One day she hears the gardener humming this song she wrote. She panics and thinks, “Oh, my God. Was I humming that out loud or just to myself? And if it was aloud, wasn’t it at 4 in the morning? Did that mean he was outside my window?” Then a storm comes, one of those L.A. storms, and the power goes out except to the cameras, which are on a different source. And the pool has been empty for months because of the drought. And she goes outside in the middle of the night because she hears something -- and trips over the gardener’s hoe and falls into the empty pool and dies facedown like William Holden at the end of Sunset Boulevard When I was 16, I had a boyfriend. I think he was... 25? I thought that was the best thing. He had an F-150 pickup and let me drive it one time. I was so high up! I panicked and was worried I might kill someone -- run over a nun or something. I started to shake. I was screaming and crying. I saw him looking over, and he was smiling. He said, “I love that you’re out of control.” He saw how vulnerable I was, how afraid, and he loved that. The balance shifted from there. I had the upper hand My little heart’s path has such a distinct road that it’s almost taking me along for the ride. Like, ‘I guess we’re following this muse, and it wants to be in the woods. OK, I guess we’re packing up the truck!’ It’s truly ethereal, and it’s a huge pain in the ass. I was trying to carve my own piece of the pie in a creative way that I kind of knew how. Like when I was working with my first producer David Kahne and I was in that mobile home for two years. I was between there and Williamsburg and I had a boyfriend then. It was a very happy time. I define myself eccentric psychologically but in the interviews that it’s often misunderstood. Maybe because my life had a lot of transformations, more transitions. I had a seven-year relationship with the head of this label, and he was a huge inspiration to me. I’ll tell you later when more people know. He never signed me, but he was like my muse, the love of my life. I don’t really know what I’m doing. I’m trying to do what feels right. I tried a lot of different ways of life, you know, things I never really talk about, just because they are kind of different. I didn’t really have one fixed way that I could envision myself living. Going from a good relationship to a good relationship—I thought that was healthy

With everything that could have felt like something really sweet, there’s always been something out of the periphery of my world, beyond my control, to kind of disrupt whatever was happening. I’ve never felt like, ‘Oh, this is great.’ I know everything about myself. I know why I do what I do. All of my compulsions and interests and inspirations. I’m very in sync with that. It’s the other stuff that I don’t have any control over, just what’s going to happen on a daily basis. My interactions. I guess I would say, like, I’m definitely drawn to people with a strong physicality, with more of a dominant personality. I think I’ve been in more dangerous situations than other people. I am attracted to the dark side, but in the same way that everyone else is. Sometimes the things that are really dangerous are because the situations or people are really magnetic and imperfect, but then when the pendulum swings you see the reason things are so amazing is because the situation is really strange. I never understood people who didn’t think traffic was romantic. There’s so much beauty in having to wait I told Davey (David Kahne) that I wanted to sound like black and white, and I wanted it to sound famous and like Coney Island and like a sad party. All the tough things that I have been through – that I've drawn upon [in my work] – don't exist for me anymore. Not all my romantic relationships were bad, but some of them challenged me in a way that I didn't want to be challenged and I am happy I don't have to do that now. People don’t always go out to visit you in Malibu. So there’s a lot of alone-time, which is kind of like, hmm. I’m not in (indie-rock enclave) Silver Lake but I love all the stuff that’s going on around there. I guess I’d have to say (I prefer) town, but I’ve got my half-time Malibu fantasy. I guess my songs started being songs that I liked when I stopped being nervous about the content. I do like singing about “Daddy” and “baby”-- “Daddy” being the man and me being the “girl.” I didn't know that that had been such a prevalent theme in the Fifties, but now that I’ve listened to more music from that era, I see that it is. And I’m very relieved, because I don't want it to seem like I have a complex! But it's something I can't get over. I want to have a life where there's just one man in it, and I haven't found that I remember telling my grandma, “I wish I could meet someone.” And she said, “When I was young, we didn't have the chance or the choice to try and see a lot of people-- you had to meet a man and that was kind of it-- but don't be afraid to meet everybody.” And I thought, you're the first person in my family who's ever made me feel like it’s okay to want to try and find the right thing. I used to live a really crazy life. I was in a relationship where times were happy but also chaotic. We were travelling between LA and Las Vegas. I can't gamble because I'm not good, but he was gambling. I was just swimming. I used to indulge in lot of drugs and dark poetry and pop culture and amazing music. I didn’t feel trapped in a trailer park. I felt trapped before I got to the trailer park because I had nowhere to live. When I got my trailer, everyone there had the same taste as I did. We all liked giant, lush, fake flower gardens and liked to decorate the walls with streamers even if it wasn’t our birthday. I couldn’t have been happier there. Before that, I did dream of escaping. I always just figured it was gonna be a man who would take me away. I don’t know if I deserve a good man, but I think about it sometimes.

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hey yall i've been just as intrigued as most of u and i decided to do a quick lenormand reading for this situation and i want to share it with u all : 1. Why is Lana deactivating her socials? Letter+Cloud+Mountain+Scythe - Anchor+Tree+Star So starting with letter (communication) and clouds (no clarity) it seems that her message came across as confusing or unclear on the specific underlying issue. Clouds cover the clear sky and if they are covering the letter then indeed she is covering some stuff. There are lots of misunderstandings about the why of the deactivation. The mountain is a blockage/stop and could lead to the silence in communication (letter+mountain) so these first cards kind of show the general situation. After the stop (mountain) there is the actual cut off (scythe). So: To be completely stuck in a problematic, confused situation. There is a possible secret no one talks about.To sum things up (for someone else); to state clearly what's what. To inform someone about a conclusion one has made / to be informed about a final result. The why: Ancor+Tree+Star - especially because the scythe continues with the anchor, she is ending the status quo; cutting off one's fetters; to abruptly untangle herself from restraints (anchor). This seems like a well-deserved or self-caused hold-up/break from boring routine or from something that was stopping her from doing what she wanted to grow (tree) related to her celebrity status (star, the last). But anchor+tree could also mean focusing on health or just taking a break in nature to feel a very strong sentiment of safety and stability. Routines (or pauses) dictated by one's nature (e.g. sleeping cycle). Stopping, pausing, helps to replenish one's energy reserves. The tree and star together are interesting because its exactly the contradiction: pragmatical, materialistic world view, and an esoteric, spiritual one. She might want to find a balance between health/body and spirit. In short: I think there is something that did not allow her to grow as much as she wanted in a specific direction (mountain), so she cut if off (scythe), because it was weighing her down (anchor) and she could not grow (tree) in the direction she wants to as a star but also the star is about hopes so she might have other dreams and wishes. Also just really taking a break. I believe she communicated with us in a confusing way (letter+clouds) and we cant see everything about it but i really dont think this is a bad situation. With the tree, I think she wants to be a down to earth person and live more modest and peacefully X

guys i randomly found this, its not listed on the channel of billie eilish and comments are turned off. whats this indica volume 3 thing?

Random lana pic dump:

“I was always an unusual girl. My mother told me I had a chameleon soul, no moral compass pointing due north, no fixed personality; just an inner indecisiveness that was as wide and as wavering as the ocean.”

ive had a feeling that clay hid everything because of privacy before writing about it. i also had a feeling that he did not expect to get swamped, chased and commented a lot because of being lana's bf. from my perspective he is a pretty simple and good guy and might just want to be chill he is also an aquarius (yes let me judge)

Help where can I listen to Venice bitch?

I remember you saying autumn though. Anyway interesting xx

BITCH there was someone here with a psychic friend or mom or i don't know what that said some months ago how the next album will have something to do with September!!!!! Like something is gonna show up in September about it. And it's happening . Where are you person

hello. i've been missing from lanaboards since may due to exams and uni admissions are there any news/updates?

this is an opinion thread though¿

YES. WHY DID SHE DO THIS. SHE DOESNT LOOK GOOD AT ALL RN COMPARED TO THE NATURAL HER!!

WHY?

WhERe IS CHERRyyyy