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there were so many medical emergencies next to us that I could literally see the headline “LANA DEL REY FANS HAVE FATAL PANIC ATTACK AFTER BEING PACKED LIKE A SAUSAGE IN A CRAMPED SPACE FOR OVER AN HOUR.”

At least she said in the end that they’d be giving us our 2-hour show somehow. So I expect the venue to give people choices between getting a refund or keeping our tickets for the rescheduled date.

I feel like I survived something walking out of there.

I’m stuck in traffic so I hope she actually does start late. We’re right nearby but the traffic is moving so slowly.

Do y’all think that there were just very few tickets left after the fan presale on Wednesday and the MLB presale yesterday? I assumed that only a certain amount would be made available during the presales.

Go to the MLB site and create a login account and put in a payment method for your profile so you don't have to do it tomorrow. I got so stressed when I had to make an account and then I kept getting an error message on that step so I couldn't continue for a while.

I was able to snag tickets for me and a friend through the MLB. I spent more than I was planning ($229 for each in a turf section) but I pretty much panic bought them because every other attempt I'd made to choose seats gave me an error message, and those were the ones that finally worked. I'm excited! I'm going to be driving from NJ. Never been to Boston so it should be fun.

Thank fucking God Taylor wasn't the guest.

l always thought she was a true believer in a god during the Born To Die, Ultraviolence, and Honeymoon eras. I only started wondering if she was having a change of belief over the past year or two and then when lyrics that sounded atheistic popped up in some songs in LFL, it kind of squared with what I'd been thinking. Could be a coincidence, though.

Like I said my first hint was that photo taken by that psycho ass stalker who snuck into her home and took photos of her her books. I'd actually read the book he posted a pic of, and I thought "Wait a minute, that book is an atheist manuscript trolling religious people" and I was confused. Then Lana's interest in science, Elon Musk, space, etc. started increasing and I couldn't help but be like "hmmmm...."

Maybe I'm just projecting the shit out of my own beliefs, but I really feel like Lana's new lyrics suggest she no longer believes in god. Lana's constant talk about god has always been something that slightly irritated me about her lyrics, so the changes she's made lately might have stood out to me more than they would have to the average person. The first sign was when that creepy ass psycho stalker snuck into her home and shared a photo of Lana's copy of The Satanic Bible. Despite what he title makes it sound like, the book is actually just preaching rationality. The authors don't really believe in the existence of Satan and they don't worship evil. They just see satan as the most "rational" character in the Bible and therefore use his name as a stand-in for logic and also as a way to prove the ridiculousness of religion in the faces of religious people. For example, they tried to have a statue of Satan built in a public square and when Christians protested, they asked WTF is the difference between our religious freedom of "worshipping Satan" and yours of worshipping Jesus? So that right there was a red flag that Lana might be leaving the Christian crowd. Then Lust for Life came out and a lot of her lyrics just felt atheistic to me ("There's no more chasin' rainbows/And hopin' for an end to them/Their arches are illusions/Solid at first glance/But then you try to touch them (touch, touch)/There's nothin' to hold on to (hold, hold)/The colors used to lure you in (shut up, shut up)/And put you in a trance"). Several songs just feel like Lana no longer believes in a god. And yes, I know that there's a song called God Bless America and All of the Beautiful Women in It, but it just feels like lip service? Like she doesn't really mean it. A lot of her lyrics sounds like what I went through as I transitioned from a believer to a non-believer. All this combined with her space and science obsession and I feel like ol' girl is no longer the Christian chick she used to be. Also the chorus of Lust for Life where Lana/The Weeknd go Cause we're the masters of our own fate We're the captains of our own souls Were red flags (in a good way) for me.

New magazines added to my collection (think you have to click to see full size):

I first bought the box set from that Spanish site the other poster linked to, but they arrived all damaged and the company then ghosted me when I asked for a refund. I had to get them from ebay. They had only recently been published so they weren't hard to find.

K I've been trying to share a pic of my updated collection (with Lovecat!!! which I found after three years of looking for it) but this site keeps showing me broken links and not letting me upload the file, so I give up.

So happy for her.

Wtf why aren't hard copies available?

I didn't expect her to show up. So glad she's there.

Nowadays the only songs I've been listening to from this album are Salvatore, MTWBT, and Freak. But I've been on a Lana break lately.

Am I the only one who thought it was shady that she said "Good time to hallucinate? I don't know." when FJM talked about dropping acid at that Taylor concert? @ 50 seconds:

Lol same. I hope it's true, get that publicity mama.

I love seeing her out and about.

Her anxiety makes these interviews so awkward for her. A lot of people say she's dumb, but when she's doing interviews with people she's comfortable with and when they're talking about music, her answers are way more eloquent and interesting. I was listening to an interview she had with Fearne Cotton close the UV release and it was so great.

Lana being interviewed on the red carpet: https://twitter.com/LanaDReyCrew/status/698599157804703744 She says she liked Kendrick's album when asked what her favorite 2015 album was, queen stanning for my rap fave.

Her beauty these past few days have given me so much LIFE. Yeah, they make her face look much bigger, especially when she's smiling. It's not even because of weight gain because you can tell she's gotten thinner. I wish she realized she doesn't need them!

The only change about her appearance that I thought was unflattering were her puffed up cheeks, and I don't even think her weight gain caused it. It looked like obvious fillers to me and I couldn't figure out why she would do that. She looked like a goddess the other night at the Freak premiere and her cheeks had finally settled down enough for her to look better. As for her weight gain, I don't know if it was depression, but maybe she just felt less pressure about what she eats and everything since she doesn't care about the pop star light anymore. Or maybe all that Italian food fattened her up. Also, I don't think she always looks a mess in public. Actually some of her cutest candid outfits are from after the BTD era. And she looked like a goddess at the wedding she went to with Frannykins.