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Basically? Nothing on Nicole's blog was particularly insane or out of line for anyone else who had a gore-focused blog back then. My blog from that time was very, very similar to Nicole's. And from my own experience, and from what Nicole herself has told me (because we conversed in DMs on Discord), it's not really meant to be fetishization or the product of a sexually depraved mind, it's more that whenever you're struggling with mental illness you grow to be desensitized to that kind of content and find a sort of, uh, novel fascination by it(?) as opposed to something that comes from a place of being a depraved human.
 
Regardless of what was on the PULL thread... it's been now over a decade and Nicole has drastically changed as a person. As she told me, she now is pretty squeamish to gore. People change. That's it.

No problem, I'm trying to spread what I have and hopefully get more people in here paying attention to this thread and NICOLE haha. I love her music. Please remember to PM me if you're looking for anything else, I'm currently compiling everything I have.

i don't think she would reblog child porn though, she probably A. knew it wasn't or B. thought it wasn't if it was
she's smarter than that atleast...
as for the other shitty stuff she does it just seems like she actually had an eating disorder and the 'romanticizing' of it came from her subconsciously trying to convince herself it was a good thing despite what everyone told her.
and the romanticizing the columbine shooters, her outlook on it seems pretty down-to-earth. she is just interested in the narrative on them that followed. not actually them
 
OT: i made a cameo in one of the reciepts omg!
 
 

her first album had her put in a mental hospital..... she wrote FOFAB while she was in there. she had bulimia and anorexia while she was there, and i’m pretty sure she still has some mental issues that might just not be able to be resolved. i think music really helps her and i’m glad she’s growing more into a love mindset instead of that violent and aggressive one she had in NBL.

the way she's slowly turning into grimes by never sticking to the schedule she publicly states. at least she's honest about being a liar, i respect her for that and i'd probs be the same way too if i were a musician 

The b sides are the Ethel equivalent of asking for Zodiac

got my first ethel cain inspired tattoo yesterday and i plan on getting more 

i just found the best solo version of gods country…and oh my  you guys need to be put on to this

real music 
 

when someone in tiktok comment section said she wanted colossus and bruises release 😭😭