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ok i've always loved this song but i just had a nice big beautiful cry to it
 
 
this is a MASSIVE overshare but my grandma passed away in june 2022. she was the glue of the family and the second oldest / first to pass of her nine siblings - we have a really huge family and we were all really close! annoyingly my grandma didn't have a will written but my mum did know her wishes, so it was up to my mum, the eldest of her other siblings, to be in charge of my grandma's money, her belongings, her house, etc. she wanted to do right by my grandma - her mum - and fulfil my grandma's last wishes. in the process of this, it was revealed that someone in our family (i won't say who, just in case  ) had been manipulating, scheming and taking money unethically from my grandma while she was still alive - money that was meant to be left for members of her family as a goodbye gift. they had also stolen things from her and acted wrongfully after her passing. when my mum confronted this person about this, they retaliated by spreading vicious lies and essentially tearing our family apart, leading everybody to turn on my mum and myself. we've had nobody else for a long time. we were pushed out. the thing is, though, all my mum and i ever wanted to do was do right by my grandma and fulfil her wishes. we lost her and then we lost everybody else, all because we wanted to do the right thing. but this other family member is extremely convincing and believable - it's not hard to see why people would believe them over us.
 
i promise this does relate to the song, let me explain! sometimes i wondered - and i still do - if we were doing the right thing at all, if we should both have just sucked it up and been complacent in order to keep our family since we lost someone we loved so much. when lana sings "three white butterflies to know you're near", it's like a gut punch every single time - when my grandma died, i just kept seeing white butterflies, like, more than i have ever seen in my life before. it always felt like a symbol or a hello from her. when we left her house for the very last time, after all of the stress and the fighting and the isolation, i stood in her old bedroom asking for a sign, a goodbye, something - lo and behold, a white butterfly came and landed right on the window! it stayed there until i left! "god if you're near me give me [...] a map to know your vision, impart on me your wisdom" sounds like a plea i've made so many times, asking some higher power to just give me guidance, to let me know if we're doing the right thing, to give me some strength or knowledge to help me thru.
 
"i have good intentions even if i'm one of the last ones" is so pertinent to the situation too. i almost want to scream it to all of my family that don't understand. our intentions are good and pure and honest - even if we are some of the last people of her family line to have those intentions. people seem to think that my mum is forcing my hand and making me 'side' with her - they think "it took somebody else" to make me honest, noble, genuine, caring. but they're wrong! i'm doing the right thing because it's the right thing, not because of any petty family drama or rivalries. there's no greed involved, no desire to have anything, no care about anything material, and it's certainly not taken anybody else to make me want to honour my grandmother's wishes. the earnestness and hopefulness combined with the feeling of being misunderstood and ostracised is reflected in both this song and my life.
 
the way lana begs for her grandfather to watch over her dad while he's deep sea fishing takes me back to such a beautiful memory i have. it was just after my grandma had passed but before any of the fighting began. my family were doing what they could to support each other. my uncle took his rickety old boat and took my grieving nephew out fishing in the sea. my nephew was struggling so much - i think he may have been only 14 at the time, and he was extremely close to my grandma so, naturally, devastated by her passing - and i remember worrying that he'd be okay on this fishing trip. then he came back, sunburnt as all hell, smiling the most beaming, beautiful grin. my uncle showed me pictures he'd taken - my nephew had stripped off, jumped out the boat and gone swimming in the ocean with all the boys, they had an incredible time, he was happy, the weight of the loss was lifted from him for a moment. i remember thinking how beautiful it was. how gorgeous to see him with his family and in nature, having fun and living life. how happy my grandma must have been watching them from above. that was the sort of stuff she loved - the family getting together and embracing the more carefree, naturalistic parts of life.
 
this song takes me back to that memory. it makes me sad how things have changed, but i still smile when i think about it. this song reflects exactly how i feel - confused, misunderstood, but adamant that i have good intentions. the way this song sounds hopeful while dealing with its subject matter is something i carry with me; i really hope that one day they'll understand and my family will have me and my mother back.
 
anyway, that was super long, but it felt nice to pay tribute to this song and get off my chest exactly why i love it so much!! thanks for giving me the space to let that all out, lanaboards  <3 xx

I’ll never forget when she first debuted this song she described it as ‘the beginning and the end of the record’ and I absolutely love that description. I’ll always remember when the lyrics were passed out during her Endless Summer tour. What an unmatched time 

This song will always have a special place in my heart. Back in 2015, I was on a trip to California and Las Vegas. The first part of the trip was in California. The whole trip, I was vibing hard to UV. On the last night of the trip, as we were leaving LA, I’m back to my hotel room, I open up Insta… and Lana had posted the first teaser of the title track… The eerie vibes, the Honeymoon line repeated, the somber strings, the tiger… It’s one of her most hypnotic Lynchian tracks ever, one I associate with hot summer evenings. I love this song so much. 

appreciation post for summertime sadness, i feel like it's beauty & it's depth is overshadowed by the fact that it's arguably her most popular & well-known song, as well as the remix, however i think it's very beautiful, it's a staple in her discography and it's filled with lana del rey's unique vision of nostalgic & americana, a red dress, pale moonlight, 60's style hair, summertime, driving fast... it's also undeniably melacholic, which is a very important element of lana's musical style, there's another layer of melancholia with the theme of death, specifically suicide, which is highlighted by the music video, also, the production/sound of the song itself is enchanting, it's very warm, rosy, gloomy, a little hazy... and the cheering/shouting samples add such a unique touch... this song is honestly angelic, yet in such a dark way... idk, i just really like this song <3

This is how Dark Paradise got a mf feeling

I had to look up what "nectar of the gods" is and it seems to be the sweetest and most delicous drink or thing you can consume, and can literally mean food for (ancient Greek) gods. When looking at the previous line, "what cruel world is this?", she might be asking herself what kind of world this is to have something you can't stop yourself from having, which makes it cruel. Maybe we can think of it like candy - your tongue and brain loves it, but you know it's not good for you if you overconsume it. Perhaps this "nectar of the gods" is heroin, which she mentions in the next line.
Heroin is an opioid and makes you addicted. She knows it's not good for her, yet she can't stop herself from having it i.e. she's addicted. She may be taking heroin to relieve heartbreak and pain, since it can have similar effects to morphine, another opioid, or she may be taking it to create a rush while thinking of her lover.
The next line makes me think of Summertime Sadness ("cruisin' down the coast, goin' 'bout 99"), but I think she is describing the rush, the euphoric feeling from the drug ("racing at a million"). And she confirms that she can't stop using it - she's addicted.
Finally, she is saying that she wishes to talk with her lover but she is either making calls but it too scared to actually talk to him and hangs up, or she keeps calling him and he refuses to have a proper conversation and hangs up the phone.
 
 
She says that she loves him more than before ("like you never knew"), hinting that they're no longer a couple. Not being with him saddens her ("like the color blue") and maybe she's crossing lines just to show him how much she cares (like keep calling him on the phone and acting "fucking crazy" by doing that).
 
 
After a quick search, I found that Lana is referencing a song, Honey on the Vine, by Matt Monro. I listened to it, and it's a sweet, jazzy love song (from 1997?), and if we go back to the previous line, she might be asking what a world would be like if it had love like that. Maybe she's thinking back to her past, remembering when her world was sweet like that, and thinking that she no longer recognizes it today.
In the next lines, she's looking back to when she was still unknown and had grand dreams of her future. She dreamt of celebrities, namedropped singers, songwriters and artists in her own songs, imagining what it must be like to be one of them. Now, she knows what it means to be a celebrity and knows the backside of being one, and wonders why she even daydreamed of a life like this when she was young. Perhaps, her (ex-)lover is a musician too. ("I used to dream/sing about people like you")
 
 
She made it to California and Los Angeles ("home land of the gods" - or maybe the "gods" are movie stars, and movie stars are usually in LA), a place she'd been longing to experience and live at. Now that she is here, she kind of has fullfilled her goals, she has everything she dreamt of (well, except for love I suppose) so the question is... what left is there for her to have? What will her new goals in life be? She's feeling lost in the place she feels most at home and must find herself. Perhaps she's feeling lost if her (ex-)lover dumped her, and she's asking herself what she did wrong and is trying to find an answer.

I am thinking that this song was inspired sonically by Knocking On Heaven's Door.. I noticed some months ago that the chord progression was the same and after listening to the bridge of wild one with the "oooh oooh" it reminded me of this
if you listen the introA big reach tho hehe

Hair transplant (if yr talking abt the friend’s wedding at mexico)

So lana had the tracklisting for btd ready by sometime on sept 2011 - think this strengthen my theory that driving in cars (and maybe u can be the boss) were leaked by lana herself… why? I think Because she knew her label won’t let her use those songs so that leave the songs with no purpose… so might well just let the fans hear it (bc it wont be on the album anyways so it’s fine if they want to hear these leaked songs)

Hair transplant (if yr talking abt the friend’s wedding at mexico)

This is my top 5 on the album since it was released, so... when you know, you know 

happy december 18th to those who celebrate...

Femme fatale was truly on the run…

omg she is so 2012 here 

Femme fatale was truly on the run…

Femme fatale was truly on the run…

girl had Poetry In Motion in her pocket when she put In My Feelings and Summer Bummer on the album and gave a lil smirk

Out of all the songs that deserve to be kicked out of LFL, Change is NOT the correct answer loves!

We need to normalize people risking getting arrested for mass leaking songs again! Perhaps it'll come with a free Lana meet and greet where she confronts you for leaking her songs. Seems like a good deal to me idk... Give us the zip!

hoping for a more information about silverlake the most lfl to the core title, such glimmering and cold feelings from it

Submitted & in no particular order…
 

Femme fatale was truly on the run…

Femme fatale was truly on the run…

Femme fatale was truly on the run…

Femme fatale was truly on the run…