LA Who Am I To Love You

[MargaretThatcher 1,331]

Also, on the debate of the "Zac" wording, perhaps she means Prozac (antidepressant)? I feel like it could make sense here since Prozac can cause sleep issues and she references not being able to sleep x

 

 

 

 

 

Actually I saw this as a bit of a reference to her lyrics in Peace - Wake up each night at the same time, roll up the blind and look outside, and in the orange light the fog is rising 

 

I have always suspected that Lana is bipolar so perhaps she is referring to Prozac. It is the go to medication for bipolar disorder

The darkness of that part hit me.

When Lana writes about her darkness, I see her and I understand her. I have that same darkness and pain too. She describes everything that I feel.

 

Honestly, Lana would not have to explain this poem for me to understand it. I know what she is talking about because I have lived these emotions. I know what it is to be emotionally neglected. I have never been taken seriously so when Lana writes about this, I take her very seriously. I get it.

[Beautiful Loser 48,796]

Holy shi-

 

What if "can I come home now?" was something she used to ask her parents when she was at boarding school?? :poordat:

[MargaretThatcher 1,331]

she's on fire. Lanas writing didn't rip out my heart like this in a long time

 

im so sad for her. that trauma of getting sent to boarding school after becoming addicted to alcohol where u get possible groomed by ur teacher can't be anything easy, its understandable why her adolescence is such a heart wound

 

And this shit one deals with as a child, it comes with you into adulthood. So much of my childhood trauma still haunts me. I see Lana. I understand Lana. And I accept Lana. Why? Because no one has accepted me so I feel the same pain Lana feels.

[ChicaCherryCola 1,393]

Holy shi-

 

What if "can I come home now?" was something she used to ask her parents when she was at boarding school?? :poordat:

No idea, but the way she repeats that question across the poem kills me 

[Doin Time 1,454]

I can't wait to hear this anymore, let me book a flight to New Zealand real quick 

[MargaretThatcher 1,331]

No idea, but the way she repeats that question across the poem kills me 

For some reason with her writing about the concept of a home, I thought of the U2 song “Walk On” because there is a line in there that says “home, hard to know what it is if you never had one.” But that’s just a favorite song on mine and I guess I was reminded of it.

 

Also on Born to Die Lana sings “ Can you make it feel like home if I tell you you're mine?”.

 

This concept of “home” is something that Lana desires because she has never had it. And since this poem is about LA, it’s important to note that LA has a big homeless population. Lana has a house, but maybe she has metaphorically always felt “homeless”.

 

And now I think of another line from another U2 song (Sometimes You can’t make it on Your Own) that says “A house doesn’t make a home. Don’t leave me here alone”.

 

Lana has so much inside of her. But damn, I do feel it too!

[AKASAKA SAWAYAMA 7,884]

LA, I sold my life's rights for a big check, and I'm upset

illuminati confirmed

[Beautiful Loser 48,796]

I didn't think of U2 songs but you're right, they definitely have a similarity there in what they're trying to say with their lines.

[Liz Taylor Blues 18,738]

For some reason with her writing about the concept of a home, I thought of the U2 song “Walk On” because there is a line in there that says “home, hard to know what it is if you never had one.” But that’s just a favorite song on mine and I guess I was reminded of it.

 

Also on Born to Die Lana sings “ Can you make it feel like home if I tell you you're mine?”.

 

This concept of “home” is something that Lana desires because she has never had it. And since this poem is about LA, it’s important to note that LA has a big homeless population. Lana has a house, but maybe she has metaphorically always felt “homeless”.

 

And now I think of another line from another U2 song (Sometimes You can’t make it on Your Own) that says “A house doesn’t make a home. Don’t leave me here alone”.

 

Lana has so much inside of her. But damn, I do feel it too!

I get the feeling from this )speculation: take with a grain of salt) that she lacks the maternal love in her life , that through being nurtured and cared for, you take with you everywhere you go even after they pass. Lana says she's never had that, and I believe her. That makes it harder to feel at home no matter which mansion you buy. Unless you heal your emotions around that wound you take that feeling of unwelcome everywhere

[Flowerbomb 65,593]

They say I came from money and I didn't

 

Lana. Sweetie.

[Beautiful Loser 48,796]

Wait, maybe "can I come home now?" is just to show her desperation for a home? She's described herself as a "chameleon soul", mentioned that she tried to find her people but never did, she moved to LA but didn't feel like she belonged there at first... Maybe she's still trying to fit in and find a place where she's accepted, find people who care for her.

[pin up galore 18,996]

 

I promise you'll barely even notice me

Unless you want to notice me

Unless you prefer a rambunctious child

In which case, I can turn it on, too

 

 

 

when the instrumentation swells right here   

[ChicaCherryCola 1,393]

For some reason with her writing about the concept of a home, I thought of the U2 song “Walk On” because there is a line in there that says “home, hard to know what it is if you never had one.” But that’s just a favorite song on mine and I guess I was reminded of it.

 

Also on Born to Die Lana sings “ Can you make it feel like home if I tell you you're mine?”.

 

This concept of “home” is something that Lana desires because she has never had it. And since this poem is about LA, it’s important to note that LA has a big homeless population. Lana has a house, but maybe she has metaphorically always felt “homeless”.

 

And now I think of another line from another U2 song (Sometimes You can’t make it on Your Own) that says “A house doesn’t make a home. Don’t leave me here alone”.

 

Lana has so much inside of her. But damn, I do feel it too!

I know what you mean! I do feel it too, unfortunately.

When I read the poem, I also thought of that Arctic Monkeys' song Old Yellow Bricks because they ask "who wants to sleep in the city that never wakes up?", and it's very focused on the idea of wanting to run away for the sake of running away but also wanting to go "home". But I think your words are a better fit!

[drugsdesire 9,868]

I promise you'll barely even notice me

Unless you want to notice me

Unless you prefer a rambunctious child

In which case, I can turn it on, too

 

this part and her tone reminds me so much of a 1950s housewife or even charlotte haze from the book "Lolita". it's the desperation and need for the man's love and it breaks my heart

[Beautiful Loser 48,796]

Ok, pure speculation here but:

Lana was an alcoholic in her teens. Maybe Patty, her mom, had heard that it's important to change the environment of addicts and proposed that they'd send her to boarding school. Maybe her mom was more persistent on the idea that it was the best thing for her daughter and Lana couldn't forgive her for sending her away. "Can I come home now?" "No." There's maybe some deeper things going on too.

Maybe my mind is spiraling and is making up a fan fiction story, I dunno.

 

Or maybe it's just "Can I come home now?" as in desperately wanting a comforting place to live.

 

I'll stop now lol.

[pin up galore 18,996]

this poem has broke me I wasn't expecting violet to be so deep I thought she was saving it for behind iron gates 

[lamms 11,605]

For some reason with her writing about the concept of a home, I thought of the U2 song “Walk On” because there is a line in there that says “home, hard to know what it is if you never had one.” But that’s just a favorite song on mine and I guess I was reminded of it.

 

Also on Born to Die Lana sings “ Can you make it feel like home if I tell you you're mine?”.

 

This concept of “home” is something that Lana desires because she has never had it. And since this poem is about LA, it’s important to note that LA has a big homeless population. Lana has a house, but maybe she has metaphorically always felt “homeless”.

 

And now I think of another line from another U2 song (Sometimes You can’t make it on Your Own) that says “A house doesn’t make a home. Don’t leave me here alone”.

 

Lana has so much inside of her. But damn, I do feel it too!

I like the songs you referenced. To me this poem screams Under the Bridge by RHCP. While the song is mostly about drug abuse, it also creates this relationship between narrator and city.

 

So either way, I'll fit in just fine

So just love me by doing nothing

 

And perhaps by not shaking the county line

I'm yours if you'll have me, but regardless

You're mine

 

 

1st verse Under the Bridge:

Sometimes I feel like my only friend

Is the city I live in, the city of angels

Lonely as I am, together we cry

I drive on her streets 'cause she's my companion

I walk through her hills 'cause she knows who I am

She sees my good deeds and she kisses me windy

Well, I never worry, now that is a lie

 

[MargaretThatcher 1,331]

I like the songs you referenced. To me this poem screams Under the Bridge by RHCP. While the song is mostly about drug abuse, it also creates this relationship between narrator and city.

 

 

 

 

1st verse Under the Bridge:

 

 

Yeah, anthony had a lot of issues with addiction.

 

So has Lana as she is a recovering alcoholic.

[#glimmeringdarling 4,629]

I am fucking crying. CRYING

[MargaretThatcher 1,331]

I am fucking crying. CRYING

 

Your in good company!