Something about her has always rubbed me the wrong way and I can’t accept that apology (which was obviously written by her team instead of her). She’s repeatedly shown how immature and ignorant she is in her live-streams. The fact that she’s been in an racist incel chat group repeatedly and recently tells me all I need to know about her. There’s trolling, and then there’s using “trolling” as an excuse to why you’re doing fucked up shit.
Is anyone else freaking out staying inside all day? I have some studying to do but still... Today they announced that the lockdown is extended until April 27 (in Greece)
Well, I've been suffering from major depressive disorder for nearly my entire life now due to, well, my fear of things like pandemics or anything "apocalyptic" or existentially confrontational. I've always written poetry since I was a kid, but I've recently - obviously - turned it into "music" or whatever. I'm just gonna share some snippets of my own writing since 2017 that confronted these anxieties. Maybe you can relate to them in this rational time. I love you all.
Abercrombie Dreams (Nov. 28, 2017)
Scraping bark from an elm tree
Videotapes of an icey creek
And in the dark of trailer parks
Shining with bonfires made of stars
Is there anything left to be?
Will we let the atoms breathe?
Is it coming for you and me?
We can dream all we want
But in the end, it’s an empty song
Streaming on a creek
That has no shores for landing
We can be what we want to be
We were told that it’s worth it, in the end
But we’re floating onward
To a point where no return exists
candy diamonds (Dec. 28, 2017)
Go to work and come home
Made a little diamond
Play it like a dull boy ’til the rocket comes in
Copper colored candy skies
Not another invite
Creeping like a meteor
Smog-covered lights
antiMATTER (Dec. 2017 - Jan. 2018)
Little balls of gasoline
Flying in my living room
Fucking up all my stuff
Leaving my furniture unscathed
Thought I was a braver man
Think that I could break?
And yeah, it only takes one touch
To leave shards all over this place
VIPER (Jan. 5, 2019)
We are here, and we fear, what we can’t find
Get rough if you must, your twisted valentine
Why does it feel so right, to wanna be gone?
We will glide through the clouds in our hand-me-downs
We can laugh at the clowns that fucked up this town
Not be present, take our dust, never land out,
Second star on the right, in electric crowns
beautiful plastic (Sep. 27, 2019)
we never wanted real
why else would we ride
the rainbow coral slide
into the leaves?
they look upon
they hold onto
feel the burn in the throat
in the chest
in their groins
its a test
see the cords on the floor?
connected to the source
Kicking the Kids While They're Down (Aug. 30, 2019)
when you grow up, bud, you’ll get really far
don’t doubt who you are
its written in the stars
and by the way we’ll make sure that like fucks you hard
we’re making carpet angels for the first time in eternity
so hold your ground I’m not holding back this is my one shot
I’m so happy like the jumping we did when we feared nothing
3am in the summer of ’03 drunk and high as fuck on the neighbor’s trampoline
there’s a metaphor in the towers falling
he was a god it seems
blindfolded while he played nightingale on the keys
like Stan Lee
they broke the universe with one promise
they broke the universe with one promise
they broke the universe with one promise
Under the Plants (and Under the Wheel in the Sky (Jul. 27, 2019)
Map like a web and I'm under the plants
in the corner of the earth again
Wide open eye in a casket on the lake
with a migraine and a broken frame
Worry of infection in the right and left
flushing all the toxins through my dump
Bright in the night there's a wheel in the sky
and I want it to fly me away
Up in the clouds where they're caught in the flood
Up in the clouds while they're stuck in the mud
Never filling up their cups, the pennies are just enough
Up in the clouds where they're caught in the flood
Up in the clouds while they're stuck in the mud
Never filling up their cups, these pennies don't pay for shit
Sloppy Seconds (Nov. 26, 2019)
Soaking your pillow
with tears in the middle
of the night
your childhood gone
by a nuclear bomb
in the blink of an eye
wishing that you didn’t
have to die at five
What’s that in the sky
but a superhero on standby?
Standby
Standby
Strangelove (Nov. 27, 2019)
All the information that you’re granted
is given as much as I can give
Our situation that was blasted has been blasted
and the levee’s about to give
You may have trusted Robert
but the rain’s been going since 1929, at least,
it’s okay, just keep fighting each other, take a side
that will be alright, B-side, ‘That Will Be Alright’
I’ve always been
and still have been
afraid of the bomb
Smoked a joint at 8am
and applied for six other jobs today
Waiting for a callback
Unsure if I should answer that
Dropping my shit off at the Goodwill backdoor
feel like such a flake but I’m betting I can always make more
evergreen (Jan. 12, 2020)
I guess you don’t lose it all at the same time
If forever means just a year or two
then I got you
If forever means just a year or two
then I got you, forever and more
Southbound, sunsetting, all the evergreen
something in the way of Aberdeen
been here two years
pass that exit constantly
So much time to work
Clocking in at the doomsday clock
cupid (Jan. 13, 2020)
So many words they get overwhelming
My friends got mimosas but I got my martini
Such a buzzkill, so I don’t say anything
Zone out off the terrace at the KeyArene
The needle lit up pink, thank you T-Mobile
The wind’s picking speed, umbrellas in the rubble
The end of an era without the hour
and I’m not so hopeful
Wicked witch’s message
debris from fireworks from the east
bronzing off a silver sky
Nothing ‘bout that looks right
The rest of the stuff I've done was written after COVID-19 was announced as an official pandemic for the United States. It's collected on my album Change of Scenery, I just need to write down the lyrics for that one when I feel a bit more energy to do so.
it's really crazy to think about how much this is impacting everybody's lives in a multitude of ways. i honestly never thought this virus would become this widespread and serious, now it's directly affecting my life because i have three weeks off of school and it may just end up being the rest of the year unfortunately. i really hope something great can somehow come out of this. much to think about.
One potential positive side effect of this virus is that through social isolation, satellite imaging of China shows some of the lowest rates of air pollution there in a long time. Obviously, social isolation isn’t sustainable but at least it’s possible to delay the inevitable to a certain extent. I don’t agree with the militant approach some people take to global warming, but it does make the likelihood of food shortages, natural disasters and ill health higher. Sorry for going a bit off topic, I studied geography so I kind of go on about this stuff without realising lol
Hello! I haven’t been on her in more than 7 months! I just came back now as my whole country is on lockdown and we’re all quarantined.
Please everyone, stay safe! Don’t go out! Wash your hands compulsively and don’t touch your face
It is not just common flu, it’s way more.
I live in Rome and we have to stay home until 3rd April for now.. it’s scary.