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i'm really impressed. i was pretty ambivalent to the idea of a poetry book (still am tbh) BUT i'm so in love with lana so i went with it. and i'm glad i did. very well written, much more raw than anything i was expecting. a lot of it feels just like she's talking. 
 
what i appreciate about this work (and the majority of her discography) is that there isn't necessarily a big thesis or storyline to it. she just kind of dwells in her own headspace, and takes us along with her. she's just in it, she's just there. they're just snapshots of how she feels, what she thinks about. there is no obvious "point" to it, it's just kind of a collage of her emotions. and that's more real than any "concept" or "storyline."
 
the trauma of her past hangs heavily over this project. this is a woman torn between her past and her future. she is haunted by a series of abusive and broken relationships, and trying to find out who she is in the wake of them. she tries new things, she goes new places, but she is inexplicably drawn back to old habits and bad memories. she's lost, not quite unhappy but still unfulfilled. she doesn't necessarily miss her past, but she can't help but think about it often. this is mostly (at least the lens i looked at it thru) a piece about recovering from your past and looking for your future. hope is a dangerous thing for a woman with her past, but she has it. 
 
really blown away

just finished and fucking wow. that was one hell of an audiobook. i'm speechless

just finished and fucking wow. that was one hell of an audiobook. i'm speechless

just finished and fucking wow. that was one hell of an audiobook. i'm speechless

the thing is it's 2am here and the book should've been out 2 hours ago for me so disappointed

Hey guys I've gotten a lot of DMs here asking for the link and I know it's not allowed so I definitely haven't sent a single link or anything like that in any DM message. I don't want anyone in trouble so please don't continue to message!
 
Instead I am wondering if members here are allowed to contact each other via their linked socials to begin with or no? Like in my mind it can probably be allowed since we can link it, right? Or do I have this wrong? Someone let me know, as I wasn't an active member here before this era and dooon't wanna get in trouble either, thanks!

Honestly, I respected it especially since at the root of it all, I'm the one who would get in trouble as the owner! After that one phone call I had with Ed regarding the Love leak, I'll forever make sure everyone stays on top of their game here, and I appreciate that others do too. If you see this place as a home like I do, you wouldn't want to see anyone put it in jeopardy of being taken down, would you? x

If this doesn’t show up on audible at midnight I am seriously going to have a mental breakdown. I’m going out of town tomorrow and I won’t be able to listen. My only option is tonight at midnight. I haven’t heard anything. I can’t wait to hear what it will be like. I think when I first hear her voice I will just cry regardless bc of the frustration lol

Remember that asking users through their PMs to send direct links is STILL against the rules! You're also setting your fellow members up because if they send one and I find out, they will be banned! 

(Keep in mind, there was an instance during the NFR era where a member played snitch & requested DL links through PMs to see who would send one and reported it to me.. better be safe than sorry, lipsters) xx

i'll hex audible istg

SALAMANDER OMFG

why her team cant do everything rigth at least ONE TIME. Is that hard? This is a MESS

I always got my eye on you guys during release season 

audible when i catch you ... when i catch you ..

Honestly I'm really bummed out cause that's unfair, especially when a bunchhh of other countries got it exactly by 12. Sigh, but I know this'll at least be worth the wait ya know

the thing is it's 2am here and the book should've been out 2 hours ago for me so disappointed

the thing is it's 2am here and the book should've been out 2 hours ago for me so disappointed

oh hell no i know damn well they did not just do that

most are listening on apple books

let's all sob chile this is RUDE

oh hell no i know damn well they did not just do that

i am so mentally unprepared that i'm convinced i'll burst out sobbing uncontrollably by the third track

i am so mentally unprepared that i'm convinced i'll burst out sobbing uncontrollably by the third track

eeek 13 minutes

I'm starting to think Audible is doing the release at the same time for everyone? Because I've seen comments wondering about it even though where they are is well into tomorrow already. So maybe it really is coming out 30 mins? I feel more convinced but maybe it's the delusion still