Lightning Moonbeam

IF YOU'RE ON FIRE - YOU'RE ON FIRE

JUST KEEP BUR-UR-UR-UR-UR-NIN'  

Okay I'm still trying to recover from my first listen of the album, especially since I was utterly destroyed by the final song, but I just want to say now that this is one of her best records to date. There's not a single song where I felt ehhh about - and while finding an “eh” song is already rare with LDR records for me actually, every song on this record is just otherworldly. I want to give the whole project a few more listens throughout the next day before I come back to share my final thoughts, but wow... she really did that x

I know this girl is crying going to the tattoo artist trying to fit her 7th album on her body

No one warned me about the ending of Black bathing suit.

I trusted you 

this is truly her most complex record to date 

Is Dealer > Thunder > WW my new favorite 3-track run of hers?! I THINK SO 

bc we were built for the lawwwng hawwwwuuuul freight train 
 

 
burned buh fiiiya without a trial
 

 
lack a stow away 

 

The new version on Thunder -

 

Okay, completely bawling my eyes out after Sweet Carolina. Seriously, crying like a baby right now, so I'm fighting back tears as I write this.
 
This is probably a bit personal for me to share, but I spoke about it a little bit ago last month when I shared a GoFundMe link for something regarding this.
 
At the beginning of this year in January, one of my best friends announced an unexpected pregnancy with her fiancé. Our friends & I were surprised, but told her we were there to support her through every step.
As a bridesmaid, I watched her walk beautifully down the aisle to marry her husband in June, knowing their baby would be shortly on the way. Was fighting back tears then too. (& didn't do a very good job at it based on the pictures.)
I then got to attend her baby shower in August, reveling in her excitement and nervousness. I even helped her set up the crib afterwards. She was so scared, not feeling completely prepared, but she was so excited for her new child.
She gave birth to her lovely baby boy on August 28th after a 48-hour labour. A perfectly healthy baby. She was so happy and we were all happy for her, and it was the beginning of a new chapter.
I don't even know how to write this next part, again as I'm still crying here, but her son unfortunately passed away just 9 days later in her arms suddenly from SIDS. She had texted me in the middle of the night about it as her son was airlifted to the hospital.. not really having much hope from the doctors.. until he was eventually declared braindead.
It was like the world had completely shattered in front of all of our eyes.
Some friends flew in for the funeral, and seeing her once more walk down an isle.. this time completely heartbroken and empty inside.. I don't think anything has ever broken my heart more.
The first time I saw her since the funeral was two weeks ago when her, her sister, and I went up to the mountains for a little birthday celebration for me. She was laughing and having fun, showing a little of that old side of her joyous self that had been completely wiped away after the tragedy she faced. 
I love her so much, and this song makes me think of her.
 
We love every hair on your head
Love you like God loves you
& you say that you're scared
Might be unprepared for havin' the baby blues
Baby blues
Baby blues
If things ever go wrong
Just know this is your song and we love you
 

I love you, M x
 
 

I absolutely love this album. That said, Black Bathing Suit and Dealer have me craving her to go fully unhinged Fetch the Bolt Cutters on us with the next album (Rock Candy Sweet her revenge?)...

Lana and those vocals on Dealer.

She needs to front a metal band. ASAP.
 

wow. well I just finished the entire album. my full thoughts and review: 
 

JUST FINISHED WHOA!!! There is so much to unpack and relisten to!!! I started crying as soon as I got to BBS  big Tori Amos vibes! AND DEALER OMG?!?!!?!!!!!!! A career highlight, she should sing like that more!!!! Thunder is still perfect and somehow even more beautiful, cried then too. Wow, I am so moved. I need to listen again to BBS, IYLDWM, Beautiful, & VFR because I actually felt they were so different for her. This album is EXTREMELY different from NFR and COCC to me and I’m grateful for that, you can hear so much growth and I can’t wait to listen 80000 more times! I hope everyone else is loving it too!!! 

I need to listen again. There's something about this moment of everyone experiencing this album together that is making it feel even more sublime.

OH MY GOD SWEET CAROLINA 
THE VOCALS THE FUCK YOU KEVIN THE PIANO THE EVERYTHING 
IS THIS REAL
IS THIS ALBUM REAL
SOMEONE HOLD ME 

Anyway someone should write Mr. Antonoff and inform him that this is how you do piano-driven songs
 
 
 

like, this goes way beyond a bitrate difference from the leaks. tonight it sounds LUSCIOUS and ALIVE. i can't even believe how good EVERYTHING sounds. maybe it's everyone listening at the same time, feeling everything, and it kinda infuses into the music somehow? it's cosmic  
 

I feel so free without the spoiler tags now. It's like they were my winter coat and spring has sprung 

i got guns in the summer time 

 
and HAWWWWRRSEESSSS TOOOOOOOO
 

 
i got guns in tha summaaaatiiiiimmmmeeeeee
 

 
n HAAWWWWRSEEESSS TOOOOOOO

Living Legend is just so iconic. I'm soooo happy she kept in the wild WHYYYYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYWHYYYY part!! I can't believe the timeline we've had with this song.. from it being a speculated song based on a post from her FaceBook page, to it randomly leaking out of nowhere last year, to it being officially released on a record. What a song x

All my circuits are busy, goodbye.