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LA Who Am I To Love You


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#1 ONLINE   Dominikx4

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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:40 PM

I left my city for San Francisco
Took a freeride off a billionaire's jet
 
LA, I'm from nowhere, who am I to love you?
LA, I've got nothing, who am I to love you when I'm feeling this way, and I've got nothing to offer?
LA, not quite the city that never sleeps
Not quite the city that wakes
But the city that dreams, for sure
 
If by dreams you mean in nightmares
LA, im a dreamer but I'm from nowhere, who am I to dream?
LA, I'm upset, I have complaints, listen to me
They say I came from money and I didn't
And I didn't even have love, and it's unfair
 
LA, I sold my life's rights for a big check, and I'm upset
And now I can't sleep at night, and I don't know why
Plus, I love Sac, so why did I do that when I know it won't last?
 
LA, I picked San Francisco because the man who doesn't love me lives there
LA, I am pathetic, but so are you, can I come home now?
Daughter to noone, table for one, party of thousands, of people I don't know, at Delilah where my ex-husband works
 
I sick of this, but can I come home now?
Mother to noone, private jet for one, back home to the Tudor house that borned a thousand murder plots
Hancock park, it's treated me very badly

I'm resentful
 
The witch on the corner, the neighbour nobody wanted
The reason for Garcetti's extra security
 
LA I know I am bad, but I have nowhere else to go, can I come home now?
 
I never had a mother, will you let me make the sun my own for now
And the ocean my son
I'm quite good at tending to things despite my upbringing, can I raise your mountains?
I promise to keep them greener, make them my daughters, teach them about fire, warn them about water
 
I'm lonely, LA, can I come home now?
I left my city for San Francisco
And I'm writing from the Golden Gate Bridge
But it's not going as I planned
I took a freeride off a billionaire and brought my typewriter and promised myself that I would stay but
It's just not going the way that I thought
 
It's not that I feel different, and I don't mind that it's not hot
It's just that I belong to noone which means
There's only one place for me
 
The city not quite awake, the city not quite asleep
The city that's still deciding how good it can be
 
And also I can't sleep without you
Noones ever really held me like you
Not quite tightly, but certainly I feel your body next to me
Smoking next to me
Vaping lightly next to me
 
And I love that you love the neon lights like me
Orange in the distance
We both love that
And I love that we have that in common
 
Also, neither one of us can go back to New York
For you are unmoving
As for me, it won't be my city again until I'm dead
Fuck the New York Post
 
LA, who am I to need you when I have needed so much, asked for so much, and what I have been given, I'm not sure yet
I may never know that either until I'm dead
For now though, what I do know
Is although I don't deserve you
Not you at your best and your splendor
With towering eucalyptus trees that sway in my dominion
 
Not you at your worst
Totally on fire, unlivable, unbreathable, I need you
You see, I have no mother
And you do
A continental shelf
A larger piece of land from where you came
And I?
I'm an orphan
 
A little seashell that rests upon your native shores
One of many, for sure
But because of that, I surely must love you closely to the most of anyone
For that reason, let me love you
Don't mind my desperation
Let me hold you, not just for vacation
But for real and for forever
Make it real life
Let me be a real wife to you
Girlfriend, lover, mother, friend
I adore you
 
Dont be put off by my quick-wordedness
I'm generally quite quiet
Quite a meditator, actually
I'll do very well down by Paramhansa Yogananda's realization center, I'm sure
 
I promise you'll barely even notice me
Unless you want to notice me
Unless you prefer a rambunctious child
In which case, I can turn it on, too
 
I'm quite good on the stage as you may know
You might have heard of me
 
So either way, I'll fit in just fine
So just love me by doing nothing
 
And perhaps by not shaking the county line
I'm yours if you'll have me, but regardless
You're mine


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:41 PM

Thank you!



#3 ONLINE   Dominikx4

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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:41 PM

please move to the VBBOTG section :) @admin cant open new topics there


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:44 PM

 

Unless you prefer a ?? child

 

Unless you prefer a rambunctious child, maybe?


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:50 PM

Omg what is this, I-

 

I did not expect this. :hdu: "I'm an orphan" If she really means it, she must have felt really alone and unimportant to her family or her parents sometime, or maybe it's just her mom. I can hear the sadness, confusion and frustration when I'm reading this. And even thought I can never understand what she's feeling, she somehow makes it very easy to understand what she's trying to say.

I really like this poem!


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:53 PM

some of these would be really good lines in a song.

 

i especially love her saying fuck the NY post, i hope she's this outspoken and direct on cocc, reminds me of her sharp ultraviolence lyric style


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:53 PM

This is beautiful. Wow, I'm speechless


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:54 PM

Can’t wait to hear it, I love this

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Posted 27 July 2020 - 12:54 PM

that shit hurted
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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:02 PM

I don't think it's "Zac", it sounds like "sax"/"sacks" to me? Idk 


Also Garcetti is the mayor of LA, what's THAT about ... 


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:03 PM

"I never had a mother"  :eartha2:


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:04 PM

I never had a mother, will you let me make the sun my own for now

And the ocean, my sun

Im quite good at tending to things despite my upbringing, can I raise your mountains?

I promise to keep them greener, make them my daughters, teach them about fire, warn them about water

 

Idk this might be a reach and we'll see once the book comes out in september but could it be that she's saying "and the ocean, my son" it would fit with in with the context of making the mountains her daughters, but could also be a reach obviously idk.


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:08 PM

Idk this might be a reach and we'll see once the book comes out in september but could it be that she's saying "and the ocean, my son" it would fit with in with the context of making the mountains her daughters, but could also be a reach obviously idk.

yuh makes sense!

i think i got it now, will update if it differs from the version we get in the book


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:11 PM

"Sachs" = Goldman Sachs? Play on words? It's about money/relationships ... 


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:15 PM

If she's saying Zach is might be Zach Dawes? 



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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:18 PM

I love how she says LA out of breath the third time, the emotion  :poordat:  :flutter:


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:18 PM

Oh my fucking god :gclap: Amazing. This feels so much like a poetic letter, instead of a poem (which is obviously the intention, I think).

 

The only part I didn't like was

 

"And I love that you love the neon lights like me

Orange in the distance
We both love that
And I love that we have that in common"

 

Very redundant, plus I don't think it adds anything.

 

But the rest is on fire.

 

@Dominikx4 Can't merge this to the Violet lyrics thread, only Elle can. So we gotta wait for her!


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:19 PM

If she's saying Zach is might be Zach Dawes? 

 

I hear an S sound at the end but ... possible I guess

 

ETA: could be Zach, but really slurred


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:24 PM

Wow there is so much to unpack here


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Posted 27 July 2020 - 01:26 PM

That was deep! I felt that!!






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