Shades

I hope that you guys who weren't able to watch benefitted from my little real-time transcriptions until someone uploads the whole thing. For my actual real job, I'm a transcriptionist, so hopefully I put my skills to use! Will be adding this to my resume of work
 
Here's also a lil clip I uploaded of her talking about and singing Living Legend & Million Dollar Man - 

but... they don't need to. they're literally fans that were talking to her about random things and sharing a special moment. i would like to see you pop in and literally start asking why she didn't re-record the unreleased music or why she reworked thunder or what is she doing next what producer what anything.

The people weren't interrupting her it's just how a conversation goes. I think this was very heartwarming, a shame I'm not following her so I couldn't watch it from the start

it really was. and that’s the sad part about it. it’s exactly what she was talking about when said it’s hard to find nice people. 

That was really special, you could tell how much it meant for her to talk to some fans after the craziness of the chickens and paparazzi today. 

why are you guys and ppl in the comment section being so mean..? like she’s having a conversation with someone and we’re blessed enough to watch her speak her mind. Wanting her to answer questions about her album and about her music is almost degrading when she’s having a nice conversation with someone. I’m so happy for Bryan and Zack because imagine how happy they are. y’all need to pull it together and remember she clearly isn’t a statue and is a human. I’m just in awe at how many disrespectful people i saw saying stuff like “this twinks been holding her for 10 minutes” like seriously…. 

This has been a bad night for the homosexual community in terms of representation

NOT HER SINGING MDM THE PART WHERE SHE SCREAMS I----
SHE'S STILL HAS IT IN HER

The longer I watch the angrier I get
SHE IS SINGING BE QUIET!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111111/11!!!

if she ever makes an autobiography/documentary it’s going to be so chaotic—her cuddling chickens after seeing a medium & coming home to journal. I love her

"I just wanted to say that conversation with Zach was so moving for me. I don’t think I've ever met someone like Zach who is just so nice and attributes part of his personality to someone else."

"If you ever get into a relationship and you see any sign of a red flag just leave. god. Then it'll be 2 weeks later and he has keys to somebody's apartment and you're in love. If I could give you any fucking wisdom it would be just be so careful. & That's what hard about being alone. It doesn't matter how much yoga you do or how many miles you run in Long Beach or how many records you put out. But pulling geographical is helpful for me,. I've driven across the country so many times, driven across New Mexico, and I feel different in the middle of the country. I feel so different. I've had some fucking really weird things happen when I've written things down like I will never speak to this person again but in this book they say once you are at your most vulnerable or you have made your most solid declarations you will have a series of almost psychic events that seem to bring that person of your life IE run into mutual friends, run into someone at the grocery store, and that's a sign I did something right. Even the paparazzi this morning, he scared me to death and I couldn't get my chickens back in the coop. They were crying all night long. Then my dad ripped his pants. I'm so sensitive if they cry at night, I'm cuddling them and they're just chickens but the thing is I already had a bad morning because I was up all night and then this paparazzi in this blacked out car followed me and then these last 2 years that were normal just disappeared and now it's like I'm not normal. I'm like this person. All of this could make you want to call somebody that you shouldn't because it's so hard to be alone even if you're with dad. That's a personality type. It's not everybody. It's very codependent. I'm a sensitive alcoholic codependent myriad."

is he funny or is he cute. is he eloquent or is he a white twink. did he deserve this time, or is he just good at talking incessantly

homedude is in the middle of his grindr date talking to lana

"I want to think about how I want to put this. Essentially, I want to thank you because we've already given 300k to the Navajo nation and we still have 700k to spread out, and I'm very grateful that 3 years ago I felt an instinct to not only help others, but heal my own family's karmic lineage through paying reparations. & That was a concept that came to me before a lot of the matters we've been taking about in the past 2 years came to light. & I want to thank you for that because the proceeds of Violet are going to do so much. We've turned agriculture wells into wells for human consumption, and there's so much more we're going to do and that is all because of you. Alright, you heard what I said about it being okay to be angry right? We did that?
Yes, Behind the Iron Gates is still coming. it's complicated, it's a complicated book, it's so complicated that I feel it could almost be consolidated into 36 pages because the density of each poem says so much and it's really unflattering. it's not flattering. & It's, god, it's different from everything.
I'm not doing a tour, I'm writing mostly. I'm doing some other things that hopefully in time won't be seen as absolutely mad.
A bonus song from blue banisters? No, but there are new songs and I like them. I felt like I did have to kind of talk about a few things mostly because people were talking so much about that.
The covers album is still in existence, whether or not it's going to be covers plus country, I was sort of thinking of this idea called country and western where it's a mix of country and Cali. I take a lot of time for myself.
Are there videos from blue? Maybe, for If You Lie Down Next to Me
What's my favourite song? My favourite song is Arcadia. I love Arcadia because I actually really like the vocals. I had fun with Dealer, that's when me Miles, Zach, and Laura were all in a side rock band. Half Shadow Puppets, half me. Also why does Miles sound so much better than me in that song? Do you know how sad that is? What else do I like? I like listening to Nectar of the Gods, I've always loved Living Legend. Why did you leak that?? Hmm?? Why did you leak my favourite songs?? Hmm?? Do you know how complicated it is try to figure out why I've woven songs from 10 years ago into now? Can you please stop leaking my album?
Also no I did not take it out of a clerks hand at Target, but I was at Target. Now they have surveillance of my trying on a puffy jacket while vaping. Thank you for that.
When I wrote Arcadia I was staying at a small hotel, I think because of the breakup I didn't know what to do and I had a few out of the room of this neon sign and actually Arcadia started as a poem about a hotel in Newport Beach, I want to say it was called the Dorsey or something. I had written about, I had written this beautiful poem and if it's not too embarrassing at some point I may turn it back into a poem even though its gonna have a lot of the same lyrics. 
My most cherished memory was thinking about all the places I could go and all the freedom I would have if I stopped thinking I didn't have it and I wrote Arcadia out of a poem."
 
 
 
okay I'm going to stop transcribing and just do little important notes, and this one might be a little sloppy LOL x

"As a critic myself, of all things, this album was for the critics whereas every other album was for myself and even though that sounds kind of cringe, I think that that's okay because people talk about chronic over explainers, but the thing about it is it if you feel you wanna explain yourself over and over again, you have the right to do that until you feel like you've been seen. Because the way I see it is that the best gift someone can give you in your intimate circle is just to bear witness to your journey and to your life, and I think if your life is public and you're a sensitive writer, addict, of all myriads of things, you want to explain yourself. & There's something else I want to mention as a chronic over explainer to some women out there. if you feel that you haven't been understood right and you get angry, there's always a place for a woman to get angry because if you don’t, you just go right into grief. That's the way I see it anyways. & it's awkward to be furious, but there's space to be furious, and of course in my album I'm not so much angry as I am explaining - except in dealer where I am furious. But I just want to say it's okay to go out on a limb and look ridiculous just because you are angry. It's always worth it, even if you feel like you’re worng. You’re right because if it's right for you to say certain things then that's just the way it is and that resinates way beyond being a singer. People can be really tough on you where you just think, why am I doing it? But the truth is I got a lot of other things I love to do that I'm going to do. I don’t plan on letting anyone's opinions spoil that. I always felt like the least controversial person in turtlenecks and all that but yet everything seemed so complicated. But what I've learned, whether you’re a singer or you’re working in a flower shop or whatever it may be - we all have our own life path and we can all see our own patterns come up over and over again and only you know what your pattern is. My album has explained what my patterns have been, but I haven't so much gone into where I want to go because I'm not sure if I can get there yet. what I've learned is when you follow your own life's path, you heal up to 7 generations forward - and in mentioning that I wanted to say that to you all as my vast employer, you are my employer, I want to thank you because we've already given $300k to a Navajo nation and we do have $700k yet to spread around which I intend to supervise personally because I want to make sure ----" (it went quiet) x

"The second epidemic to come out of the pandemic was domestic disputes. It rose beyond 300% in this country. If you went to some of the meetings I went to, you would be shocked. All of the feelings I thought were so unique to me about just wanting to just not wanna do this anymore, like, people who are like old and young and smart and stupid they are all saying the same thing like they felt like the end of the relationship they knew it didn't make sense, but they felt the end of the relationship was going to break them. I remember when Sean and I broke up and I thought It was the end of the world especially because he was perceived as everything that I wasn't, like sunshine and the right side of the law and it broke my heart. The whole idea of everything disintegrating and the lesson was I got to get in touch with that panicked side that was very old because they say hysteria is historical, so it's a reason to dig into your history but you don't want to do it alone. & even still everything hurts, like when I see things it hurts. You would be shocked like relationships completely break people. They really do. Even if you go onto the next one, it's not like it gets better."

I can’t believe I didn’t like this when it leaked
 
i think I was just in a bad mood
 
literally every song is a 10
 
when will I escape her grasp over my mind
 

The way she was about to say really interesting shit a few times and just stopped mid sentence every time
 
she was gonna go on about being angry at someone in FMWUTTT, she was gonna talk about Hope’s music video, she was gonna answer any heavy question before rob got there, so many times I was left so curious. This was the best live she’s ever done and I think she was more comfortable because less people had access to it since honeymoon is private. I hope she does these more often, it was so interesting and heartwarming I loved it 

not at all... he is a perfect complement and i would love to hear more music from them together.
this song wouldn't work (as well) without him. it would still sound incredible with Lana singing the verses too, but this is so much more powerful

not at all... he is a perfect complement and i would love to hear more music from them together.
this song wouldn't work (as well) without him. it would still sound incredible with Lana singing the verses too, but this is so much more powerful

not at all... he is a perfect complement and i would love to hear more music from them together.
this song wouldn't work (as well) without him. it would still sound incredible with Lana singing the verses too, but this is so much more powerful

The way Rob stares at the camera, doesn’t blink, doesn’t move for like 5 minutes….

Lana could do Guernica but Picasso couldn’t do Black Bathing Suit.

Also Blue Banisters (the track) didn't really resonate with me much when it was released with Textbook and Wildfire Wildflower but for some reason in the context of the album it's become a favourite? It's just resonating with me so hard I think especially since I lost a few close friendships over the pandemic and lockdowns and really don't feel like I have many close female friendships anymore. BB really makes me yearn for that again