Distantly

Text Book is weirdly better at night (I mean even better). 

Sometimes I feel weird being such a HUGE fan of Lana. There’s lots of celebrities that I like, but I’ve never been this curious/invested in someone’s life before. I’ve done hundreds and hundreds of hours worth of research for various topics that involve her or her life over the years. Sometimes I feel kinda guilty about it, like it’s creepy or something? Of course I know how to respect her privacy/personal life and would never go out of my way to bother her, but it’s just something I think about

Whenever I was 10 I liked the Summertime Sadness remix more than the real song...
 
please don't ban me 

I might get dragged for this, but..
 
Oddly enough, I didn’t like Lana’s music when I was first introduced to two of her songs in my adolescence (Blue Jeans and National Anthem iirc). 
 
I don’t remember which song catapulted me into her discography, but I do remember being very fond of Black Beauty early on. I guess it’s a weird song to segue into her music, but yeah! The rest is history

i would've felt the same way if those two songs were my introduction tbh! luckily, in my case it was video games  do you remember what album u first listened to?

omg Video Games is such a good one!! I think the first album I fully listened to from Lana was either BTD or Paradise (but more than likely the BTD-Paradise Edition)! 
 
what about you??

In my senior year of HS back in the dark ages of 2014/2015 I started listening to Lana. At the time, newly accepting that I was gay I developed a massive embarrassing crush on the hot new guy at school. Like I couldn’t look at him in class even it burned. I know cringe. ( he flirted with me at the post prom party and I like actually almost fainted. Needless to say I did not get lucky lmao) Anyway I lived right near the beach so I used to walk on the beach every day for exercise. And listen to  Lana. And yearn for him. Again, II KNOW. My favorites at the time were Born To Die. Mostly I’d listen to video games and blue jeans and maybe dark paradise. Anyway I outgrew that stupid obsessive first gay crush but those songs always remind me of the insanity and power of homoerotic yearnings  at 17/18. I cant hear BLUE JEANS without laughing and smiling and maybe okay yeah I see HIM.
-funnily enough he’s now a gay porn star. No I will not say which. Good for him. There’s nothing wrong with monetizing being sexy.

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I have no words. I’m finally in. So grateful

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

I wasn’t able to fully explain how I felt last night cause I was DRUNK. But anyways. My notification said that the @/didlanagopublic account had posted 9 minutes ago. I instantly freaked out cause I realized she opened again and was probably already closed. Then I get to honeymoon’s pages and it says she was only gonna be open for 5 minutes and felt so let down until I clicked the follow button and it worked and I SCREAMED AND JUMPED 😭 so that’s just to say I’m ECSTATIC because I didn’t even use my IG in 2015 and have wanted in since 2016. THANK YOU ALL!!

that snippet is stuck in my head. what a haunting melody. 
‘young love don’t always last forever’

it is so UV which is all i’ve been wanting since i discovered her !! so happy thank u queen 

Iconic 
iconic 
iconic
 
shes serving everything 

She’s still open and currently at 565k followers… just 3k shy of a 350k increase! x

i cant believe i finally made it into @/honeymoon. in time for her to promote WCE too! 

!!!
 
I GOT IN!
 
FIVE YEARS IN THE MAKING.
 

the gays are spreading the word of jesus