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The poet YouTuber is going to adore this record 

I had to pop back in just for a second because If You Lie Down With Me was mentioned in a Blue Banisters promo TikTok...it has to be the next single 
 
(Don't quote me on this for sure I just saw the screenshot on Twitter, so idk if other non-singles were mentioned)

Okay I'm still trying to recover from my first listen of the album, especially since I was utterly destroyed by the final song, but I just want to say now that this is one of her best records to date. There's not a single song where I felt ehhh about - and while finding an “eh” song is already rare with LDR records for me actually, every song on this record is just otherworldly. I want to give the whole project a few more listens throughout the next day before I come back to share my final thoughts, but wow... she really did that x

This is the love child of the best parts of Honeymoon, Ultraviolence and Chemtrails over the Country Club. 

Okay just listening to Cherry Blossom and anyone who says this is a youtube rip is quite frankly this is them:

I've never felt more proud to be a stan. She just keeps getting better. Fuck whatever critics say, this is her BEST record. Period! 

Now the album is out,
Let us appreciate the supremacy of IF YOU LIE DOWN WITH ME!!! 

Dealer is Laura Palmer in Pink room energy

Okay, completely bawling my eyes out after Sweet Carolina. Seriously, crying like a baby right now, so I'm fighting back tears as I write this.
 
This is probably a bit personal for me to share, but I spoke about it a little bit ago last month when I shared a GoFundMe link for something regarding this.
 
At the beginning of this year in January, one of my best friends announced an unexpected pregnancy with her fiancé. Our friends & I were surprised, but told her we were there to support her through every step.
As a bridesmaid, I watched her walk beautifully down the aisle to marry her husband in June, knowing their baby would be shortly on the way. Was fighting back tears then too. (& didn't do a very good job at it based on the pictures.)
I then got to attend her baby shower in August, reveling in her excitement and nervousness. I even helped her set up the crib afterwards. She was so scared, not feeling completely prepared, but she was so excited for her new child.
She gave birth to her lovely baby boy on August 28th after a 48-hour labour. A perfectly healthy baby. She was so happy and we were all happy for her, and it was the beginning of a new chapter.
I don't even know how to write this next part, again as I'm still crying here, but her son unfortunately passed away just 9 days later in her arms suddenly from SIDS. She had texted me in the middle of the night about it as her son was airlifted to the hospital.. not really having much hope from the doctors.. until he was eventually declared braindead.
It was like the world had completely shattered in front of all of our eyes.
Some friends flew in for the funeral, and seeing her once more walk down an isle.. this time completely heartbroken and empty inside.. I don't think anything has ever broken my heart more.
The first time I saw her since the funeral was two weeks ago when her, her sister, and I went up to the mountains for a little birthday celebration for me. She was laughing and having fun, showing a little of that old side of her joyous self that had been completely wiped away after the tragedy she faced. 
I love her so much, and this song makes me think of her.
 
We love every hair on your head
Love you like God loves you
& you say that you're scared
Might be unprepared for havin' the baby blues
Baby blues
Baby blues
If things ever go wrong
Just know this is your song and we love you
 

I love you, M x
 
 

like, this goes way beyond a bitrate difference from the leaks. tonight it sounds LUSCIOUS and ALIVE. i can't even believe how good EVERYTHING sounds. maybe it's everyone listening at the same time, feeling everything, and it kinda infuses into the music somehow? it's cosmic  
 

wow. well I just finished the entire album. my full thoughts and review: 
 

Sweet Carolina sounds 10 times better on streaming

JUST FINISHED WHOA!!! There is so much to unpack and relisten to!!! I started crying as soon as I got to BBS  big Tori Amos vibes! AND DEALER OMG?!?!!?!!!!!!! A career highlight, she should sing like that more!!!! Thunder is still perfect and somehow even more beautiful, cried then too. Wow, I am so moved. I need to listen again to BBS, IYLDWM, Beautiful, & VFR because I actually felt they were so different for her. This album is EXTREMELY different from NFR and COCC to me and I’m grateful for that, you can hear so much growth and I can’t wait to listen 80000 more times! I hope everyone else is loving it too!!! 

I need to listen again. There's something about this moment of everyone experiencing this album together that is making it feel even more sublime.

the way this album starts off slow and hypnotic and then it's like...
THE TRIO
 
HOLD ON FOR DEAR LIFE
BLACK BATHING SUIT
LIE LAA LA LA LA LIIEEEEEEEEEE

Sweet Carolina is so dreamlike and peaceful, I feel like I've ascended and I'm floating through the clouds. This album has some of her most beautiful and tranquil songs 

OH MY GOD SWEET CAROLINA 
THE VOCALS THE FUCK YOU KEVIN THE PIANO THE EVERYTHING 
IS THIS REAL
IS THIS ALBUM REAL
SOMEONE HOLD ME 

like, this goes way beyond a bitrate difference from the leaks. tonight it sounds LUSCIOUS and ALIVE. i can't even believe how good EVERYTHING sounds. maybe it's everyone listening at the same time, feeling everything, and it kinda infuses into the music somehow? it's cosmic  
 

like, this goes way beyond a bitrate difference from the leaks. tonight it sounds LUSCIOUS and ALIVE. i can't even believe how good EVERYTHING sounds. maybe it's everyone listening at the same time, feeling everything, and it kinda infuses into the music somehow? it's cosmic  
 

Where were the haters talking about 128kpbs youtube quality
Their silence IS LOUD right now.
I hope they have nightmares tonight

Just finished the new version of Thunder, and it's stellar. the original has been one of my favourite LDR songs since it leaked, and this version may even be better. I'm so glad she kept the background vocals. I think people are really, really going to love this track. Such a power song x

Literally how i'm feeling right now 

been listening nonstop all week and somehow tonight it sounds 10 times as rich and beautiful. like it's been born into the world and is alive now, breathing. a magnificent classic 

been listening nonstop all week and somehow tonight it sounds 10 times as rich and beautiful. like it's been born into the world and is alive now, breathing. a magnificent classic