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I don’t know what that says about me but Fingertips is perhaps one of the tracks I listen to the most. There’s just something unbelievably magical about driving or riding a bike listening to that song - it’s like a portal to a different dimension. It’s heavy and incredibly Mark Kozelek-like in its diaristic style which may not be the most replayable thing ever but the sheer imagery of both her vivid memories and of her wandering through a hazy, foggy forest contemplating about her past is just earth-shattering. It’s quite frankly one of the best things she’s ever done, in my opinion.

I’ve been meaning to say that Kintsugi would be the thesis of Lana’s career- that is making the beauty out of ugly circumstances (fixing broken pottery : the circumstances / with golden platinum : her approach/romanticization of it)

Bel Air bridge… What a woman what a writer what a poet is she!
 
don’t be afraid of me
don’t be ashamed
walk in the way of my soft resurrection (favorite)
idol of roses
iconic soul
i know your name
lead me to war with your brilliant direction

"love. is it real love? it's like smiling when the firing squad's against you, and you just stay lined up. yeah. fuck."

did anyone else think of mata hari? defiantly not wearing a blind fold during her execution and then blowing each one of her executioners a kiss.

Walking is art
so is my body 

woah… out of all parts of Lana’s life I’m so fucking invested in 2004-5 Alabama/may era. So fascinating. what truly happened there? if anybody is to film a documentary i definitely would be very fixated on this segment of her life truly. this is speculation purely but what i think happened there- my two coins is that
 
Lana went to Alabama maybe to live with her boyfriend (who i think was older than her?) and the man asked her to marry her (i talk to jesus / guns and roses / thanks to the locals poem) but Lanz declined. they also maybe like to go back between alabama and cali. she also went to AA meetings around this time frame. the relationship eventually grew tense after it then she decided to leave as to pursue a career in music (west coast/pawn shop blues). what i’ve thought about for the last two weeks of this part of her life…

Walking is art
so is my body 

I think Lana- truthfully- was wrong and she should step up her game… being late is late though right? Why she was 30 minutes late on that Abu Dhabi show and still be allowed to extend her time was because it was her own show. She’s a grown woman and needs to take responsibility and professional because it’s a festival after all

Walking is art
so is my body 

Is anybody willing to make a Lana Del Rey iceberg?

Walking is art
so is my body 

woah… out of all parts of Lana’s life I’m so fucking invested in 2004-5 Alabama/may era. So fascinating. what truly happened there? if anybody is to film a documentary i definitely would be very fixated on this segment of her life truly. this is speculation purely but what i think happened there- my two coins is that
 
Lana went to Alabama maybe to live with her boyfriend (who i think was older than her?) and the man asked her to marry her (i talk to jesus / guns and roses / thanks to the locals poem) but Lanz declined. they also maybe like to go back between alabama and cali. she also went to AA meetings around this time frame. the relationship eventually grew tense after it then she decided to leave as to pursue a career in music (west coast/pawn shop blues). what i’ve thought about for the last two weeks of this part of her life…

Immediately like. Seems like we all know/knew a guy like this. Thank you Lana for bringing awareness

woah… out of all parts of Lana’s life I’m so fucking invested in 2004-5 Alabama/may era. So fascinating. what truly happened there? if anybody is to film a documentary i definitely would be very fixated on this segment of her life truly. this is speculation purely but what i think happened there- my two coins is that
 
Lana went to Alabama maybe to live with her boyfriend (who i think was older than her?) and the man asked her to marry her (i talk to jesus / guns and roses / thanks to the locals poem) but Lanz declined. they also maybe like to go back between alabama and cali. she also went to AA meetings around this time frame. the relationship eventually grew tense after it then she decided to leave as to pursue a career in music (west coast/pawn shop blues). what i’ve thought about for the last two weeks of this part of her life…

Just going to drop this here, as it got lost in my status updates & I think everyone should have an easy access to it lol.
 
There are over 700 photos across both Flickr albums linked below from 2010, so I took on the task of possibly finding Lana in the crowd. Feel free to "where's Waldo" Lana in both albums   .
 
January 1st, 2010 - Coney Island New Years Day Polar Bear Plunge (I checked all ~300; she was not in any of them, but do check again in case I missed anything) 
https://www.flickr.com/photos/coney_island_polarbear_club_usa/albums/72157623117061334/page2
 

*also to note - we do have HQ versions of both of these pics + more, however those versions were scammed from Mike unfortunately in 2018 & I don't think its right to provide those (considering how they were obtained). I literally couldn't find the cropped pic on the right in its current quality on the Internet, so I grabbed an ss from Tik Tok. 
 
June 19th, 2010 - Coney Island Mermaid Parade (possibly in one of the ~400 pics linked below - Lana implied that she was going to this event on Twitter like 3 days prior to this event) 
https://www.flickr.com/photos/coney_island_polarbear_club_usa/albums/72157624262105247
 
 

Last night, I had a really really weird dream about Lana. 

So, firstly, Lana invited me to her show in an festival (probably Glastonbury) to be one of her dancers to dance for White Mustang's outro. Because Lana found out how much I love the outro.

We were in a weird dressing room which was made of glass and we had like million dresses to choose, but we had to choose something. I can't remember what dress I was wearing but I remember that Lana was wearing that flower pattern dress she wore in Rio for Mita Festival.

When we went to the stage, there was a stage for the band but for the singers and dancers we had to go down stairs in the middle of the public. The stairs were kinda low and long and there were like 6 stairs or something so we could get to the end part of the stage which located in the very "middle" of the audience.

Okay, when we arrived on the real stage, White Mustang started playing and when the outro started playing, Lana, I and the dancers were so confused, we didn't know what to do.

And Lana said something like: "Uhh, let's just do what I'm doing". Lana started doing that Dua Lipa dance meme and we started doing that too during the whole long ass outro. 

When this dance/song ended, I felt like they didn't need me anymore and I didn't know what to do there either. So I went to the dressing room, so I could change my dress because I somehow disliked it and tried on many other dresses there were. Somehow, two of my old friends whom I haven't talked to in years and saw like million years ago, interrupted and walked to the dressing room and they ignored me and started talking to eachother while I was changing the clothes. They somehow left the room idk how.

I found a dress I liked - it was a striped polo dress then Lana and her dancers came to the dressing room and she glared at me and said "Where were you? Why did you disappear?" and then I answered "Did the show end? I didn't hear anything." and then Lana answered an arrogant way: "Are you deaf or what? " After that, I can't remember anything, I can't remember what I even answered lol. 

But idk why I was so impolite and arrogant with her when I left the show. I wouldn't to that irl. Sorry if the text, I wrote, was clunky because the dream itself was very weird and it was very weird to describe too. 

there is something about this LDRX era: I dreamt about her more than usual
Last week I dreamt of being teleported back in time & i saw Lana in 50s- 60s Japan, she told me she's secretly a time traveler

I think Lana- truthfully- was wrong and she should step up her game… being late is late though right? Why she was 30 minutes late on that Abu Dhabi show and still be allowed to extend her time was because it was her own show. She’s a grown woman and needs to take responsibility and professional because it’s a festival after all

I’ve been meaning to say that Kintsugi would be the thesis of Lana’s career- that is making the beauty out of ugly circumstances (fixing broken pottery : the circumstances / with golden platinum : her approach/romanticization of it)

it’s not about emphasizing Lanz to be a perfect being. it’s about ethic. being on time is not hard ya know

Walking is art
so is my body 

it’s not about emphasizing Lanz to be a perfect being. it’s about ethic. being on time is not hard ya know

i would, in fact, especially considering how none of the things you listed are a factor of being on time

I love Fingertips. I love the stream of conscious character of the song. It’s like Lana laying her soul to bear in her delicate and plaintive fashion 🙏.

it would be okay if this was once every now and then. but this has been going on for years, and it has only gotten much worse this year (30-50 minute delays... yikes), so there is no defending here.