Yosemite 23,817 Posted October 5, 2020 This poem is my fav from Violet. Thought it could be here Thanks to the Locals Reveal hidden contents I ran away from you to Lake Arrowhead I didn't tell you where I was going I knew I had a 24 hour grace period before you were done making your film I went to an aa meeting And my share read like a tale of a battered housewife I felt everyone's eyes on me The rehab kids in the back row stopped throwing spitballs at each other and stared at me I fucking hate my life. I waited after the meeting in the parking lot for any of the local ladies to come up to me Only one did, Kira. "I don't really have much advice for you" she said I was in over my head out of my league In the wrong place wrong season wrong time wrong face and I knew it But I din't know what to do You asked me to marry you You said your mother was dying and you couldn't fathom your life without a woman in it. I was tempted but it didn't seem like a good enough offer I wanted more than that even though I've never had anything. Not one person to call if I changed my dollar in for quarters to ask what they thought about it. But there's always been just a little tiny piece of me inside the size of a small slice of angel cake that knew somewhere somehow That I deserved better than someone like you. So I got back into my truck in the dark my little yellow pamphlet with two numbers on it that I would never call crumpled up Kira with her local area code and gratefully also her sponsor, Gail from Palmdale. I didn't feel better and I didn't use the numbers but I thought that I had been very brave that I did the best I could, sharing in a big room, tears streaming down my face in my high school flannel just to say "The man that I love hates me. But it would be easier to stay." As the last person's lights flooded over my windshield the night became very quiet and I thought- If I go back and I end it How would I handle driving down your street and it becoming a distant memory not reality no longer sweet. Sweet the way it tastes in my mouth to say your name sweet like when I was young, driving down those roads before we were done before any big battles were lost or won unbeknownst to everyone except for you and me. As Sweet as a junkie's limited concept of love can be. I thought cause u were clean u were a lot like me wanting to be closer to something big and free. But some people need their secrets And now my greatest battle will be this unchained melody In my heart From not having you next to me. To shut the door on the past and step blindly into the abyss no destination intact the only direction set in the Compass - to move forward. So I drove back and forth on the Rim of the World Hwy and the beauty of its name reminded me That I was beautiful That some things are beautiful for no reason. Not everyone needs to pretend to love their girlfriend just because their mother is dying or because they're afraid of a change in season... Anyway I don't have a pretty couplet to give resolution to this poem nothing very eloquent to say except that I was brave and it would've been easier to stay (exactly as seen as in 'Violet Bent Backwards Over The Grass') 34 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Doll Harlow 12,375 Posted October 6, 2020 So I assume she's talking about Chase? nvm 0 Quote You call me lavender, you call me sunshine. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Doin Time 1,454 Posted October 6, 2020 Me when the locals streamed Doin' Time: 21 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Rorman Nockwell 57,678 Posted October 6, 2020 Quote You asked me to marry you You said your mother was dying and you couldn't fathom your life without a woman in it. What a dick, seriously. Who the fuck says that? Anyway, I actually think this is about Francesco because his mother died after a long illness in 2016, and he actually is a creative director for a film production company (which, incidentally, helped make the NFR 3-part mv). Chase has only ever been in two movies or something and afaik his mother is alive and well. 24 Quote ur legit gonna look the same stop buying oil of Olay face cream Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Doll Harlow 12,375 Posted October 6, 2020 On 10/6/2020 at 6:41 AM, RormanNockwell said: What a dick, seriously. Who the fuck says that? Anyway, I actually think this is about Francesco because his mother died after a long illness in 2016, and he actually is a creative director for a film production company (which, incidentally, helped make the NFR 3-part mv). Chase has only ever been in two movies or something and afaik his mother is alive and well. Good catch. I thought it may have been about Chase because he's an actor but this makes sense. Francesco also got engaged fairly quickly after he and Lana separated. 11 Quote You call me lavender, you call me sunshine. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Blue Ink 5,912 Posted October 6, 2020 On 10/6/2020 at 6:41 AM, RormanNockwell said: What a dick, seriously. Who the fuck says that? Anyway, I actually think this is about Francesco because his mother died after a long illness in 2016, and he actually is a creative director for a film production company (which, incidentally, helped make the NFR 3-part mv). Chase has only ever been in two movies or something and afaik his mother is alive and well. Exactly my thoughts. Idk why this just made me see him in a different (slightly better) way... Although this portrayal of him isn't really flattering it seems like he isn't just an arrogant rich guy (as I thought) but he also had his demons when he was with Lana. 2 Quote Honey, you make me feel I'm invincible Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Rorman Nockwell 57,678 Posted October 6, 2020 On 10/6/2020 at 6:44 AM, Doll Harlow said: Good catch. I thought it may have been about Chase because he's an actor but this makes sense. Francesco also got engaged fairly quickly after he and Lana separated. On 10/6/2020 at 6:52 AM, BlueINK said: Exactly my thoughts. Idk why this just made me see him in a different (slightly better) way... Although this portrayal of him isn't really flattering it seems like he isn't just an arrogant rich guy (as I thought) but he also had his demons when he was with Lana. Also she says, "the man I love hates me" and it's very common to blame yourself when your partner cheats ... idk I just think it really has the Francesco vibe. 5 Quote ur legit gonna look the same stop buying oil of Olay face cream Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Blue Ink 5,912 Posted October 6, 2020 Thanks for sharing the poem @sweetlikecinnam0n, I really liked that one. Something about Lana writing down her thoughts so unfiltered is very interesting. Definitely have to get that book soon 2 Quote Honey, you make me feel I'm invincible Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Platinum Greenwich 13,962 Posted October 6, 2020 "not everyone needs to pretend to love their girlfriend just because their mother is dying" i... have gone through something kind of similar to Lana here, which I have never given myself time or space to really think about in this perspective so this hits different, for sure 11 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Anthony 3,348 Posted October 8, 2020 On 10/5/2020 at 5:25 PM, sweetlikecinnam0n said: You asked me to marry you You said your mother was dying and you couldn't fathom your life without a woman in it. How can a guy be so stupid as to say something like that? This poem is one of my favorites, although it is extremely sad. 3 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
PARADIXO 33,392 Posted October 10, 2020 oh my god 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Liz Taylor Blues 19,092 Posted October 10, 2020 Damn..... this is my favorite of the poems 0 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Creyk 11,839 Posted November 7, 2020 We needed this in audio format. This has so many powerful and hard-hitting lines. With her emotional delivery, it would be on the level of sportcruiser. 4 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Yosemite 23,817 Posted December 22, 2020 Still my favorite poem from Violet, really wish it was on the spoken-word record 4 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Yosemite 23,817 Posted April 4, 2021 The last reply on this was mine but either way- this poem is so so so good! It hit me right in my feelings. I kinda see why she might NOT want to have this on the spoken record but it really deserved to be there. 9 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
WhiteHydrangea 4,218 Posted April 7, 2021 Wow, I really need to get the poetry book 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Dominikx4 25,610 Posted April 7, 2021 "thanks to the locals" - Ben & Ed when the Summertime Sadness remix hit #6 on the BB 100 7 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Yosemite 23,817 Posted August 27, 2021 This is still so good- never gonna forgive her for not adding this one to the spoken-word record 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
American Whore 52,537 Posted November 8, 2021 On 8/27/2021 at 8:51 PM, Yosemite said: This is still so good- never gonna forgive her for not adding this one to the spoken-word record Maybe it was a bit too personal, not that the others weren't, but she just wasn't feeling this one being spoken? Idk lol 0 Quote if i fuck this model and she just bleached her asshole and i get bleach on my t-shirt, imma feel like an asshole Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
bigspender 8,369 Posted November 8, 2021 On 10/5/2020 at 5:25 PM, Yosemite said: This poem is my fav from Violet. Thought it could be here Thanks to the Locals Reveal hidden contents I ran away from you to Lake Arrowhead I didn't tell you where I was going I knew I had a 24 hour grace period before you were done making your film I went to an aa meeting And my share read like a tale of a battered housewife I felt everyone's eyes on me The rehab kids in the back row stopped throwing spitballs at each other and stared at me I fucking hate my life. I waited after the meeting in the parking lot for any of the local ladies to come up to me Only one did, Kira. "I don't really have much advice for you" she said I was in over my head out of my league In the wrong place wrong season wrong time wrong face and I knew it But I din't know what to do You asked me to marry you You said your mother was dying and you couldn't fathom your life without a woman in it. I was tempted but it didn't seem like a good enough offer I wanted more than that even though I've never had anything. Not one person to call if I changed my dollar in for quarters to ask what they thought about it. But there's always been just a little tiny piece of me inside the size of a small slice of angel cake that knew somewhere somehow That I deserved better than someone like you. So I got back into my truck in the dark my little yellow pamphlet with two numbers on it that I would never call crumpled up Kira with her local area code and gratefully also her sponsor, Gail from Palmdale. I didn't feel better and I didn't use the numbers but I thought that I had been very brave that I did the best I could, sharing in a big room, tears streaming down my face in my high school flannel just to say "The man that I love hates me. But it would be easier to stay." As the last person's lights flooded over my windshield the night became very quiet and I thought- If I go back and I end it How would I handle driving down your street and it becoming a distant memory not reality no longer sweet. Sweet the way it tastes in my mouth to say your name sweet like when I was young, driving down those roads before we were done before any big battles were lost or won unbeknownst to everyone except for you and me. As Sweet as a junkie's limited concept of love can be. I thought cause u were clean u were a lot like me wanting to be closer to something big and free. But some people need their secrets And now my greatest battle will be this unchained melody In my heart From not having you next to me. To shut the door on the past and step blindly into the abyss no destination intact the only direction set in the Compass - to move forward. So I drove back and forth on the Rim of the World Hwy and the beauty of its name reminded me That I was beautiful That some things are beautiful for no reason. Not everyone needs to pretend to love their girlfriend just because their mother is dying or because they're afraid of a change in season... Anyway I don't have a pretty couplet to give resolution to this poem nothing very eloquent to say except that I was brave and it would've been easier to stay (exactly as seen as in 'Violet Bent Backwards Over The Grass') i can’t help but think this is the poem version of cinnamon girl. 0 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
