Elle 121,070 Posted March 19, 2021 Sun stare Don't care with my head in my hands Thinking of a simpler time Like Sun Ra Feel small but I had it under control every time When I was a waitress Wearing a white dress Look how I do this Look how I got this When I was a waitress Working the night shift You were my man Felt like I got this Down at the Men in Music Business Conference Down in Orlando, I was only nineteen Down at the Men in Music Business Conference I only mention it 'cause it was such a scene And I felt seen Mmm Summer sizzling Listening to jazz out on the lawn Listening to White Stripes When they were white hot Listening to rock all day long When I was a waitress Wearing a tight dress, handling the heat I wasn't famous Just listening to kings of Leon to the beat Like look how I got this Look how I got this Just sing in the street Down at the Men in Music Business Conference I felt free 'cause I was only nineteen Such a scene Summer, summer's almost gone We were talkin' 'bout life, we were sitting outside till dawn But I would still go back if I could do it all again, I thought Because it made me feel, made me feel like a god 'Cause it made me feel, made me feel like a god Somehow it made me feel, made me feel like a god When I was a waitress Wearing a white dress Look how I do this Look how I got this When I was a waitress Working the night shift You were my man Felt like I got this Down at the Men in Music Business Conference Down in Orlando, I was only nineteen Down at the Men in Music Business Conference I only mention it 'cause it was such a scene & I felt seen Mmm When I was a waitress Wearing a tight dress Like look how I do it Look how I got this I was a waitress Wearing a tight dress Like look how I do this Look how I got this Made me feel, made me feel like a god It kinda makes me feel like maybe I was better off 'Cause it made me feel, made me feel like a god Kinda makes me feel like maybe I was better off 15 Quote • 4.18.14 • 5.1.14 • 9.20.14 • 5.28.15 • 6.14.15 • 7.28.16 • 7.24.17 • 10.23.17 • 10.24.17 • 1.25.18 • 2.5.18 • 12.5.18 • 10.3.19 • 10.11.19 • 11.16.19 • SF • ATL • ATL • IND • ATL • CHI • LDN • NYC • NYC • DC • ATL • NYC • PDX • SAN • KS Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
COCC Destroyer 131 Posted March 19, 2021 Because it made me feel, made me feel like a god 'Cause it made me feel, made me feel like a god Somehow it made me feel, made me feel like a god Kinda makes me feel like maybe I was better off 21 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
American Whore 51,089 Posted March 19, 2021 Okay i need to say something. Lana starts NFR as "your head in your hands as you color me blue" but on COCC she starts it as "Sun stare, don't care with my head in my hands" Has she herself become Norman Fuckin Rockwell, looking back at herself? 24 Quote if i fuck this model and she just bleached her asshole and i get bleach on my t-shirt, imma feel like an asshole Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
nxtlvl 39 Posted March 19, 2021 white dress by kanye west 2 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Rico25 7,877 Posted March 19, 2021 4 hours ago, Elle said: You were my man Felt like I got this I hear felt like a goddess 3 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
mrdrk89 33 Posted March 19, 2021 I don't get the meaning of 'Like Sun Ra, feel small' - I know he was a musician but why is she equating him with feeling small? I'm not that familiar with Sun Ra. 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kommando 3,264 Posted March 19, 2021 29 minutes ago, mrdrk89 said: I don't get the meaning of 'Like Sun Ra, feel small' - I know he was a musician but why is she equating him with feeling small? I'm not that familiar with Sun Ra. He was an eccentric jazz artist with a small but cult following which allowed him to pursue a lifelong career despite all his idiosyncrasies. So maybe she harkens back to her Lizzy Grant days : yes it felt small (the budget, the scope, the audience), she had a very specific aesthetic which made her an original but it was on her plane, she had it under control every time... 19 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Venice 6,933 Posted March 19, 2021 The cut sound during “it was such a sceeene” sort of annoys me, like I wish they blended in the different recordings better. But overall, I’m in love with White Dress!! Amazing and amazingly experimental, too. Just when I thought things couldn’t get any more unique and alternative with her ? I’ve listened to this non stop since the leak and by the next morning it was basically burned in my mind. Nostalgic, relatable and beautiful. 2 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
hlxon 2,445 Posted March 19, 2021 her best song on the album YUP YUP YUP 8 Quote do you ever just... gaze at horizons? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kandidate 247 Posted March 19, 2021 *grabs time machine* *heads to the men in music business conference* 9 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Churchome Rep 3,380 Posted March 19, 2021 The whole album is about the burden of fame, but this song is the only one that talks about her singing (in the street). This reminds me of the Rolling Stone interview she did with Elton John where she reminisced that there was a freedom starting out as a musician because it was fun, nobody really judged you. In her Lizzy Grant, early BTD days, she leaned into the whole image of a tragic, Lolita/Marilyn Monroe type figure. Critics thought it was a persona, and the backlash was intense, perhaps in a white hot way. But her fixation with these women is tied to how she thought it was thrilling to be the object of the male gaze. I read “look how I do this/ look how I got this” as a subversion of the fragile female trope because she turns it into a performance that she controls. Lana is older now. She probably looks back at these days wistfully, and maybe she still wishes she could tap into that although it’s no longer part of her current singer-songwriter “street cred.” Maybe that’s what QFTC was about, wishing she could reclaim a freedom of performance that was taken away from her. But this song was like done in one take, so this could be an over analysis or projection 14 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
longtimeman 8,907 Posted March 20, 2021 I haven't seen anyone talk about the central setting of this song, and how there's never been a 'Men in Music Business' conference. The very idea of it is absurd, because men are considered the default in this sort of thing, and it's only minorities/less recognised groups that the industry occasionally remembers. What there have been, of course, are numerous 'Women In Music' conferences, which pretend to be about showing off, for that one day, the talents of women performers, but are actually just another chance to ogle them. So it's pretty funny how she flips it around from what it probably was - a patronising event at which the music executives were, I'd imagine, made up almost exclusively of men, so that it reflects what it must have felt like to nineteen-year-old Lizzy. A circus where she was the one who was looked at, by people who forgot or didn't care that she was looking at them at the same time. She did the same with flipping 'Music to Watch Girls By', too. 11 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
daphnedinkley 13,373 Posted March 21, 2021 am I crying listening to this? maybe 4 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
theviolence 5,837 Posted March 23, 2021 Tl;dr: "I'm 19 and I'm on fire" 0 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Venice 6,933 Posted March 25, 2021 WHEN I WAS A WAITRESSSSS The nostalgia and memories of stuff that never happened in my life is so strong with this song 7 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BlueJeans 2,606 Posted March 25, 2021 I'm taking my time with this album, but this is definitely one of its stand out tracks for me. 4 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
x VB 12,507 Posted March 29, 2021 Is she singing about having sex with the men in the music industry or what? 0 Quote http:// The legacy Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
BluebirdXO 7,679 Posted March 29, 2021 9 minutes ago, Redhydrangeas99 said: Is she singing about having sex with the men in the music industry or what? I thought about that, but I don't want to project or put words in her mouth. I guess it's free for interpretation 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Venice 6,933 Posted November 3, 2021 DID U MAKE THIS @plastiscguy I've been falling in love for days and just noticed the username, was it you did you do itttt I love it!! 1 Quote Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
plastiscguy 63,430 Posted November 3, 2021 4 minutes ago, Venice said: DID U MAKE THIS @plastiscguy I've been falling in love for days and just noticed the username, was it you did you do itttt I love it!! Hi! yeh it was me sjdjsjdj 3 Quote My rose garden dreams set on fire by fiends... Share this post Link to post Share on other sites