The Siren

I just had a thought this morning, listening to BB: thank God Chuck made her pregnancy public, otherwise we would have lost our shit with her silence and the line “there’s a baby on the way” 

'Cause there's a man that's in my past
There's a man that's still right here
He's real enough to touch
In my darkest nights, he's SEEEEAAN ShiiIHiihIIinINg

Blue Banisters 
 
when she tells Jenny she can’t remember where those dried flowers are from but then she secretly whispers Oklahoma to herself because she remembers exactly where those flowers are from  
 
powerful stuff 

MISS CHURCHOME IS SENDING ASF 

could be non-alcoholic
 
if not, good for her that she feels safe & comfortable partaking tbh

The melody she sings at the end of BB is probably one of the most hauntingly beautiful I've ever heard from her
 
just the soft 'summer comes, winter goes- spring i skip, god knows' I feel it i hate spring too it brings back bad memories 
 
(Edited cause speculation on [redacted] isn't cool)- but generally wasn't last spring when she was writing behind the iron gates too?, I don't remember if she was doing many outings around feb-april til everything surrounding her spiraled in May. spring feels like a bad time in her life too, post-btd critic hell was in Spring also

was hiking yesterday and BB is so fucking tragic when ur walking downhill in cold sunshine damn damn damn 

Summer comes, winter goes
Spring I skip, God knows
Summer comes, winter goes
Spring I sleep, heaven knows
 
This part really hits for me. The whole song hits but this paired with the production, just speechless. This song is the perfect combination of reflection, yearning, melancholy, support, and the presence of hope and strength in sadness. I don't know def very special. I'm done ranting.

Chills when she says green instead of blue 

I’ve actually been thinking it could be her too because the “you can’t be a muse, be happy too” advice sounds so much like something she’d tell someone (also made me think of her lyric “you thought I was your muse/but all along it was you” from Dogwood). Then when Lana says “happy” in the long twang in the next line, it reminds me so much of Jenny Lewis’ song “Happy”. But I told myself I’m probably connecting nothing as usual 
 

The beautiful Norma Shearer, unknown today except by true cinema buffs, and, in the 30s, the queen of MGM. 
 
And remember, she said that Dealer was basically her "just screaming my head off." That wouldn't fit with COCC and may not fit with BB either, but who knows? I think BB is going to be a revelation. 

So when the songs initially came out everyone was wondering if Jenny was Jenny Lewis or someone else. 
 
I remember someone saying that Jenny and Nikki were friends as well. 
 
I’m really thinking it was Jenny Lewis based off that and the lyric we were “writing” with Nikki Lane. 
 
Anyways that makes BB even more special to me because Rilo Kiley will always hold a special place in my heart!

Jenny jumped into the pool
 

hooooe-klahoe-mahhhhh

JENNY JUMPED INTO THE POOL SHE SAID MOST MEN DONT WANT A WOMAN W A LEGACY IN HER VEEEEEEINNNNNNNNS  N BE HA EE YAAA YAAAAA PPYYYYY  N that SCAAAAAAHAAAAAARED me . . .  now my banisters r greeeeeeeeen n graaaaaaayyuh ah

When the swirly synth starts after the “oooOOOHHHUHHH” in the first verse I lose my shit, makes me feel like I’m flying 

Blue banisters is so stunning I still cannot believe my ears  
 
....OOOOOKLAHOMA........
 
 

she's so smart 
 
also, what each color represents:
 

 

 
maybe this post should be on the BB thread sorry mods

OK IM CRY NOW 

I don't know if this has been discussed, but in regards to domestic abuse/heartbreak: the switch from blue banisters to green + grey banisters:
 
When you get a bruise, it is usually dark blue/ back. And when it is in the process of healing it turns grey + greenish. 

I never thought I would cry over BANISTERS  

And now my blue banisters are green and grey
I feel this on all levels of my existence 

jfc the banister metaphor hits like a ton of bricks this is so deep and powerful her mind

blue banisters like the complexity of actually letting someone affect n hurt you and what that might mean 

Has anyone read "The Song of Achilles"? That book left me devastated and sobbing. The line "You can't be a muse and be happy" from BB reminds me so much of the line "Name one hero who was happy"