Shades

gays in touch with their emotions are basically psychologists with a PhD

what I mean by her being on auto pilot is in the way Beyonce and Britney (and a few others, aka almost all of Hollywood) are. Lately she's had that lights on but nobodies home look. I really was in denial about the changes from 2014 to now. Its not normal. The puffy face. Her weigh fluctuating so much. Hows she's been dressing. It seems really out of character. I don't think she's on dope or anything, and there are no signs that she is.

This is what you see at 3AM staring at you down the hallway
 
love ya Els

Honestly I think Lana has been on auto pilot since the last half of 2015, I highly doubt she cares or knows about how fucked up Hillsong is

Each time she releases a track she disappears without any news, It’s honestly just tiring.

She is clearly referring to depression and not taking a random dig at either of those two people in an insanely personal and raw song.

Calling these lyrics “a mess” is a choice.

Coachella - Woodstock In My Mind was only a warning. A precursor. An omen.

Why does she always do this? I was going well before she released MAC, i wasn’t even thinking about her next record. When she said it wouldn’t be out until 2019 it felt painful. But FOUR MONTHS from now.... and why???? and I hope she’s not changing anything on the record but she probably will.
 
This really isn’t hyping me because that literally was the latest we could get. Except for a potential delay, but having a date set won’t stop her if she wants to delay it.

When she's no longer young and beautiful
 
 
Honestly i already feel myself caring less. I was so into her up until the lust for life era, i can't be bothered with any of the fan things i used to do, maintaining a complete collection etc. I check back often for news and leaks but meh

She gone! Get that promo of How To Dissepear!

I bought Tupac's Poetry book a couple of weeks ago. Thought I would share some while we wait...
 
Sometimes I Cry
Sometimes when im alone
I cry because im on my own
The tears I cry R bitter and warm
They flow with love but take no form
I cry because my heart is torn
and I find it difficult 2 carry on
If I had an ear 2 confide in
I would cry among my treasured friends
But who do u know that stops that long
to help another carry on
The world moves fast and it would rather pass u bye
than 2 stop and c what makes u cry
Its painful and sad and sometimes I cry
and no one cares about why
 
My Dearest One!!
There R no words 2 express
how much I truly care
So many times I fantasize of
feelings we can share
My heart has never known
the Joy u bring 2 me
As if GOD knew what I wanted
and made u a reality
I'd die 2 hold u or 2 kiss u
or merely to see your face
my stomach quivers my body shivers
and my heart increases pace
2 give me $ or lots of gold
would not be the same 2 me
I prayed and watched the distant stars
and finally u came 2 me!
 
Cupid's Smile II
I ran outside 2 feel the rain
and I stayed outside awhile
When the rain was done along came the sun
and this was Cupid's Smile!
 
The Sun and The Moon
Your ways R similar 2 the rays of the sun
Warm 2 many but 2 strong 4 some
The more u R needed the brighter u shine
Watched 4 2 long and your brilliance will blind
The eyes of mortal men who threaten u with Doom
They regret 2 c u set but it is time 4 the moon
 
Forever and Today
U say that u'll love me forever but what about today
As the dusks become dawns and the years pass on will u love me the same way
If so let us rejoice and bathe in constant pleasure
If not spare my heart today and I shall recover before forever
And if my doubts and ?'s upset u, forgive my fragile heart
I just wanted 2 know if you'd love me forever
Before Today would START!
 
I would also recommend the book if you are one of those fancy people who put books on your coffee table for people just to skim through if they want as its just like 60 or so short poems and they are quite nice, some are political, some are dedicated to people who died or friends of his and other mostly random and about love.  It's called The rose that grew from from the concrete.
 
I've never read any other poetry books, so I dont know if this is normal for them but the left page has it in his handwriting and then the right page is the poem like typed in normal book form (lol), I hope Lana does that also as it's nicer to read the real handwriting for some reason.

daily reminder that mariner's apartment complex and venice bitch deserve better than just a random release 

She honestly makes me feel so disgusting. Love her.

https://soundcloud.com/user-595168496/how-to-dissapear
 
 
Tell me your opinions when you get the chance!

so is Lana

Not going to lie, any excitement I had for NFR has almost completely gone away. Her collabs are always fucking horrible, and a collab w/ another awful rapper does not fit the vision/sound I thought MAC and VB were leading into. This is going to be another LFL-type mess and I'm not fucking here for it. 
 
Do you guys remember how LFL was done (and from the demos/info we had, had a pretty cohesive and great sound), and while she was waiting for it to mix, she kept getting "inspired" and collabing with people and rushing to add songs she JUST wrote? It's fucking happening again!!!!!!!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT RUINED LFL!!!!!! SOMEONE STOP THIS WOMAN FROM FUCKING UP HER OWN WORK

im sorry but that was lowkey cringy
 
im ready to be attacked

Not going to lie, any excitement I had for NFR has almost completely gone away. Her collabs are always fucking horrible, and a collab w/ another awful rapper does not fit the vision/sound I thought MAC and VB were leading into. This is going to be another LFL-type mess and I'm not fucking here for it. 
 
Do you guys remember how LFL was done (and from the demos/info we had, had a pretty cohesive and great sound), and while she was waiting for it to mix, she kept getting "inspired" and collabing with people and rushing to add songs she JUST wrote? It's fucking happening again!!!!!!!! THIS IS EXACTLY WHAT RUINED LFL!!!!!! SOMEONE STOP THIS WOMAN FROM FUCKING UP HER OWN WORK

Imma be honest. Ever since LFL got released last year, I only listened to it 5 times total. I feel SO bad about it because I know Lana worked hard but I always cherry pick a song to listen to but overall, I feel like there's no magic or spark to it. The entire album just somehow feels uninspired and I fear the same thing is happening with NFR now. Of course this is all about personal perception and most of you have a different view on LFL than I do so take this post with a grain of salt.

im sorry but that was lowkey cringy
 
im ready to be attacked