ProstituteStares

Because I'm crazy, baby
I need you to come here and save me
I'm your little scarlet, starlet, singin' in the garden
Kiss me on my open mouth
 
VS 
 
Because I trust in the decision of the Lord,
To watch over us
Take him when He may, if He may
I'm not afraid to say
That I'd die without him

It's not one of those phases I'm going through
Or just a song, it's not one of them
I'm on my own
On my own
On my own again
I'm on my own again...
 
VS 
 
Put on that hotel California
Wear my blinders in the rain
I've got nothing much to live for
Ever since I found my fame
 
 

I've got "For Free" - The song itself isn't my fav from COCC, but the description fits my personality very well  totally INFP-t, as someone said!  
 
Almost everyone would describe you as having your heads in the clouds: an idealist spending their free time romanticizing their past and following playful tangents of “what if.” You value art (especially music) that allows you a form of escapism from your life. Unrequited love is your guilty pleasure

I’m fairly certain this has been her plan all along.  Remember during COCC she talked about knowing where she needed to go as an artist, but that it was going to be very hard to do?  That, along with the line “not from the land of the palms so I know I can’t stay here / I’m not native,” leads me to believe that she’s going to leave LA and commit to a quiet simple life somewhere in the middle of North America and just focus on her art.  I’m sure Joan Baez has been a real mentor to her during this process.  

remember when ed/ben said she’s been thinking of something she might “pull off” for years & then shared a fan theory on their story…. was this part of the huge thing ? disappearing ? ? 
i need to get off my phone but it just makes me sad for some reason (which is so dumb it’s just social media) i just wonder how we will find out about future music 

She just got me thinking… how a lot of us here need to take time for ourselves… and just sign off… 
 
Her powe

For me personally, Lana's music is more than enough to keep me connected to her, but I wholeheartedly understand why her deleting her socials is hard for some of us. She's been very active with us and shared so much with us, so it can be difficult to adjust to that going away. 

Listening to Arcadia… and thinking.. how much I love her. She is our angel, our flawed angel! they really did mistook her kindness… even in words and how she sings certain lines I see how sweet she is, how humble… I hope she takes a good care of herself !!! If this decision is good for her mental stability then, automatically, it’s good for us too… 

You know this is probably the best decision she's ever made especially from a mental health point of view. 
 
All that hate, all that body shaming. The constant pressure all the time gets to you no matter how strong you are. She did the right thing and whilst her absence is upsetting, I'd rather Lana be happy than go through anymore of the bullshit that entails with being on social media sites. 

The amount of emotional whiplash we go through as Lana fans………  Sending a hug to you all bc it isn’t always a walk in the park.

....In other news, Juicy J supports her decision?? Very random but that's nice, I guess
 
 

I will speak for myself on this but..
 
Lana's presence and art has literally saved my life. I cant even begin to explain to you the pain and darkness i've gone through and how having her music and seeing her made it so much more bearable. I know it seems silly, but for people who don't have a lot emotionally, she is the thing we look forward to to keep us going. The extremely sudden absence leaves an empty spot for me. It was the one thing i had to feel connected to her. It may be different for you, but please at least understand and allow people to react the way they need to. This forum is pretty much the only thing we have to be able to connect with each other about someone we all love so deeply. 

Every building in the US should lower the American flag halfway today in honor 

 

I like being dramatic. It's fun.

I'm not reading all that but I'm happy for you
Or sorry that happened 

Ok her last post is iconic AF

we didn't know that we had it all.. but nobody warns you before the fall ?

idk how some of u AREN'T moved by this. do u realise how much of a privilege it actually is to have access to someone like lana's instagram, a little peak behind the curtain? we were so lucky 

this is a great example of "no matter what she does, somebody will always criticize her"

This is exactly it — just being an audience to her personal posts  was a very small way of feeling connected to her as a person. We don’t know her of course, but this felt like her wanting us to know her beyond just the music. It was something we probably never actively thought about, Lana’s online presence was just there and she became a part of our lives in a more accessible, cellular way. It’s a very bittersweet feeling. 

It’s funny how something so trivial has actually left me feeling pretty downbeat. She has been a constant in all of our lives and even if half of her posts were happy birthday messages to friends… just her presence is a uniting force and with her opting out of sharing herself with us outside of the music—which is totally her choice and respectable— come the realisation that your own perceptions of people are just that… you never really know them and everything is ephemeral  it just kind of forces you to reflect on your own place in the world.
 
or maybe I’m just projecting 

people should be allowed to "grieve" this, social media is a big part of how we connect & communicate with others, including our favorite artists & idols  also it's very unexpected & it really feels like she's saying goodbye

then leave, we're grieving. 

I'm always going to be right here
No one's going anywhere

I'm so happy that she's doing what SHE wants and I hope she finds peace.
Lizzy will be back.
ly