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There's no universe in which A&W is not song of the year/decade/millenium.

Skfnsk a tiktok edit just popped up on my FYP of clips of Lana with Taylor during her win set to the “always an angel, never a god” part of boygenius’ Not Strong Enough and it destroyed me a little skkk because it’s so true! The whole night, she was the angel. Looking beautiful, giving hugs to Taylor for her wins, standing amongst a seated crowd to clap for Billie during her win, even joining Taylor up on stage as she lost against her while smiling solemnly in the shadows. But she wasn’t the god. She didn’t get that dedicated, shining moment of praise from the industry that she deserved. Yet, she still showed support for everyone else and still kept a smile on her face. & it’s been that way her whole career. She paved the way for so many artists who have now reached major success, always showing her love and support for them, while she rarely ever gets the credit for it herself. Always an angel, never a god.. (also the fact the edit was set to that boygenius song made it hurt even more since they won one of her noms skkk)
I am also one of the people in the bunch who are still running on 3 hours of sleep, so it’s time for me to turn in before I get more delusional loool. Tomorrow’s a new day xx

OOOH FUCKING RECORDING ACADEMY YOU WILL FUCKING PAY FOR THIS YOU FUCKING GRAMMY!!!!!!!!! I'M SO FUCKING ANGRY AND SAD, I'M FUCKING LOATHING!!!! I'M FUMING AND I'M FUCKING MAD!!!!!!!!!
 
FIRST THINGS FIRST, I UNDERSTAND THAT THE CHANCES WEREN'T HIGH ABOUT LANA WINNING AOTY AND SOTY, AFTER ALL I KNEW IT WAS A POPULARITY CONTEST SO I'M NOT SO MAD ABOUT THIS BUT
 
SHE LOST HER FUCKING ALT CATEGORIES TO FUCKING PARAMORE AND FUCKING BOYGENIUS? IN FUCKING CATEGORIES SHE HAD A FUCKING GREAT CHANCE WINNING IN THESE FUCKING CATEGORIES BECAUSE THAT ALBUM AND SONG WERE DOING NUMBERS IN THE ALTERNATIVE SCENE AND WERE FUCKING HIGHLY ACCLAIMED. AND SHE FUCKING LOST TO FUCKING PARAMORE? I FUCKING THOUGHT THAT THEY WERE THE ONLY THREAT IN THE FUCKING VMAS AND WE FUCKING BEAT THEM THERE!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!?
 
ANYWAYS SHE LOOKED VERY FUCKING BEAUTIFUL THERE, I LOVED HOW ROYAL AND MODEST SHE LOOKED THERE SERVING BRITS AWARDS 2013 AND HONEYMOON BANGS. I THINK MY FAVORITE GRAMMY DRESS OF HERS IS 2018 BUT OVERALL LOOK THIS MIGHT BE MY FAVORITE. TAYLOR LOOKED SO FUCKINC PRETTY TOO, WITH LANA THEY WERE SERVING YING AND YANG.
 
JACK WON PRODUCER OTY AGAIN? AT LEAST THIS COULD FUCKING COMPENSATE THE LANA SNUB!?
 
SORRY FOR WRITING IN CAPS BUT I'M SO FUCKING MAD, RECORDING ACADEMY VOTERS I'M READY TO FIGHT WITH YOU MY FISTS ARE FUCKING READY!?!?!??! WHO THE FUCK VOTED FOR FUCKING PARAMORE AND FUCKING BOYGENIUS!?!??!?!?!!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!?!??!?!

I think Taylor is overpraised and painfully overexposed, but I believe she had good intentions in that moment and I actually respect her for the love she showed Lana tonight. She dedicated part of her speech to giving Lana her flowers, presumably in front of the voting committee along with the entire audience. If the biggest cash cow for the music industry can't get them to listen to her, then who will? She did as much as she could, short of handing her the award.

You are fucking 100% spot on.
 
Lana doesn't "play the game". That's why a lot of us thought it was odd that she actively campaigned for Ocean Blvd (at the urging of others it seems?), inspired by the goodwill she'd been receiving, just to ultimately be slapped in the face by the powers that be.
 
Her punishment, right? Well, no, because she benefits both ways. She doesn't have to ever do SHIT for the Grammys again, and she'll still be incredibly successful, innovative, subversive, and self-maintained... all of that without being some cookie cutter industry shrill trying to impress the industry bigwigs. Isn't she the #2 most streamed female artist on Spotify currently? She's quite literally the 2nd most prolific and successful female artist out there right now. And she did it without being watered down, or playing it safe. 
 
If she wants to say "fuck it" and go even more gloves off now, well... We ride at dawn! She's a genius. And she'll be fine without a stupid trophy given to her by Boomers who never understood her (or tried to) anyway. Fuck 'em. She's a true rebel, and rebels are rarely rewarded easily by those who have played it safe their entire lives.

I woke up and .... 
 
I don't think I can even bring myself to watch the main show now in retrospect knowing that she doesn't win anything. 
 
Anyway, I'm feeling really really awful and I need to rant, so, here's my own QFTC
 
I think the "music industry" is scared of Lana, because she's one of the biggest pop stars in the world right now and she doesn't owe them anything. Her success has been through her own hard work over decades of persistence. As much as journalists tried to push the industry plant theories during BTD, deep down they all know that she's there, standing among them, because she sang to crowds of just ten people in bars, she wrote and wrote and wrote and pushed and pushed and pushed and when finally she hit the radios, people listened. And people loved her. 

The fact that Lana is the force she is without having a single Grammy, without getting huge radio play, without pandering to the critics, the zeitgeist, the egos that need stroking .. that's what they're all afraid of. Intimidated by. 

I think she's one of the only huge artists of our time who took the "traditional" struggle route (touring tiny jazz bars and local pubs) and went "viral" (on tumblr). She incapsulates both the old and the new way of gaining success. 

Plus, her music, her looks — they're endless homages to icons of the past. There's countless references to literature, movies, singers, poetry, cultural icons, fashion. And yet despite building so much on our collective nostalgia, Lana is authentically herself. Despite what magazines try to push, no Lana fan wonders who she is under her references. Nobody thinks it feels empty. It's such a feat to be able to effortlessly reference the past while influencing the future generations. It's been said time and time again how Lana is the reason that Billie, Olivia, even Taylor make the music they do today. For someone who is blinded by their own fear and hatred about Lana's struggles in the past, her "bad influence," her "inauthenticity," having an artist who is simultaneously able to exist in the past, present and future is the epitome of power ... power they didn't bestow and power they didn't want her to have  
 
She has built a legacy (and DYKTTATUOB was the cementation of that legacy, whether it won or not) that will surpass 99% of the people in the music industry currently ... 
 
And it's been said time and time again but things that appeal (mostly) to women are derided. Any kind of media. I totally get what Lana was saying in QFTC although it wasn't worded well (and this probably won't be either). Nothing has changed, not really. I know Lana said in the Billboard awards that she's glad people feel they can't express themselves now as it didn't feel that way in 2008, but I don't think anyone, Billie Taylor and Olivia included, is singing about the experience of being a woman like Lana is: Just look at A&W ... we still have some way to go before people (mostly MEN) accept that it's just as worthwhile to sing about the experience of SA, alcoholism, suicide ideation, abusive relationships, and family trauma as it is to sing about being powerful and strong as a woman (and you can be those things while singing about those topics that everyone just wants to ignore). It takes courage to sing about these things when so often nobody in your own personal life wants to listen! But singing to millions of people? The vulnerability? Beautiful. There are millions of women (and men) who see the power in that. 

On the same topic, I absolutely hate that some stupid articles before the Grammy's didn't even mention Lana's name once despite her being nominated in 2 major categories, yet mentioned Jack in relation to Lana's work. As much as I am happy for Jack for his win it feels much the same way that he won in part thanks to her artistry while she is barely mentioned in the media coverage, on the carpet ... anywhere. Except by Jack and Taylor themselves (). This might be controversial but it reeks of sexism to me. I just HATE how she is treated almost as if her name is dirty so they just avoid saying mentioning her as if she doesn't even exist. URGH I AM IN SUCH A BAD MOOD 

All of this… and it was really really well written btw. Honestly wish I could share to socials lol  because you lay it out! Fuck the industry and the people who don’t get her honestly. She’s a legend, a true legacy artist, one in a million. There’s nobody like her in our generation and there won’t be again. 

STOP
 

I feel sick…

Me but with opioids

Let’s all agree to wear head to toe black for the duration of this week in mourning

Let’s all agree to wear head to toe black for the duration of this week in mourning

Let’s all agree to wear head to toe black for the duration of this week in mourning

Let’s all agree to wear head to toe black for the duration of this week in mourning

Let’s all agree to wear head to toe black for the duration of this week in mourning

Let’s all agree to wear head to toe black for the duration of this week in mourning

Yo Billie, I’m really happy for you, I’ll let you finish, but Lana has one of the best songs of all time. One of the best songs of all time.

I fear my psychiatrist will suggest a stronger cocktail after tonight's meltdown

 
 

no istg if girlmoron wins again...

how am I going to sleep ; knowing lana was nervous and had Taylor entrance with her, 
knowing it means so so much to her to win ... how tf am I supposed to sleep after she has WORKEED SO HARD on Tunnel... just for this  to happen.  im so mad. 

I just had to dunk my face in ice water because my heart was racing too fast LMFAOOO imagine if I died and the cause of death was getting too wound up over the Grammys 

Anyone wanna join me for a Xanax cocktail?

she is beautiful and omg this breaks me

That boy genius album is so boring and if it wins again I’m just done with life 

I swear to fuck if I’m forced to see those three rascals running up onto the stage like a clown car one more time…